Friday, January 30, 2015
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...


Last weekend, something happened in my family. The strangest and unexplainable thing happened. Even the medical doctor said there's nothing wrong.

I wish to write more about it, but was told not to. At least until everything is back to normal.

Now here I am, at home... Putting Raul to sleep. He's a bit cranky today.. Maybe because he fell earlier in the morning? And when I tried to put him in the carseat to send his brother off to school, I bumped his head... Haihhh this morning was a mess.

I didn't send Raul to his babysitter on Fridays... Mostly because we always went back to Beruas every Friday. Ni pun petang kang nak balik...

So macam malas nak hantar babysitter. Pagi2 jela serabut sikit. Hmmmm... Camne la ade anak 3 nanti. Masak aku... 

I really need a maid. :(



Toddles



Alhamdulillah....
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Pecah.

Sedih. Berbaur iri...

Gembira juga sedikit.

Haih ape la aku merepek ni.

Tak pernah jadi milikku pun.

I should just learn to let go.

Let go.

Easy said than done. But i must.

Ahhhh this is the hormones in me rambling.


Abaikan.

Catatan rasa: hati bagai ditusuk sembilu.


Sekian.
Friday, January 16, 2015
bismillahirrahmanirrahim...



Ramai mintak aku share pengalaman and camne nak start bisnes. Aku sebenarnya bukan tak nak share, tak tau nak tulis camne. Plak tu, bukannye baguihhh sangat pun aku ni. huhu... segan nak cerita beria. Sape yang follow blog ni dari awal (sejak aku belum kawen) mesti tau betapa ntah ape-ape nya aku ni.... Malu aku nak share citer... Baru 3,4 bulan berkedai kahkah...

Takpela... sebagai catatan peristiwa, meh update ckit...


Ok, first sekali, aku tak pernah bermimpi pun nak ada kedai mahupun menjadikan berniaga tu satu kerjaya. Tak pernah. Cita-cita dari kecik nak jadi cikgu, then engineer, then lecturer. Tu jer.

Tapi sejak bersalinkan anak sulung, segalanya berubah. Ye, betul... murah rezeki bila ada anak. Insya Allah...

Start dari ade Razin, aku berjinak-jinak jual barang2 baby preloved kat FB. Masa tu makan gaji and basic tak sampai 2k. Gaji dapat 2k plus kalau overtime. So, saje la ambil peluang dapat balik duit untuk topup baju baru anak/mainan dia dengan jual balik some of his branded clothes/toys...

Dan waktu ni aku aktif dalam macam-macam group kat FB. Malaysian Cloth Diapering Parents, grup2 Preloved, grup2 Group buy etc... Dari situ kenal kawan-kawan secara maya. At the same time network + friends berkembang and people know me. Standard la kalau ade jual beli mesti orang bagi recommendations or feedbacks etc... so dari situ makin ramai kawan maya dan kenal macam-macam orang.

Start seronok berniaga online. Then started looking for direct resources and from there I registered my own company (5th Oct 2011). Masa ni dah takde hati nak kerja makan gaji dengan Sime Darby Rent a Car dah. So I told hubby I wanted to quit after receiving bonus (HAHA).

Bulan Dec 2011 last month aku keje makan gaji. Then I was on my own. Macam biase jela, berbisnes di FB and start buat website kot by this time... tak ingat sangat.

By middle of 2012 aku memang dah sangat serius and ade target untuk berkedai in 2014. I remember one of the suppliers handed me a questionnaire/form and there was one question on "whether or not I plan to have my own brick and mortar shop in the future?"

I answered yes. "When?" 2014.

Alhamdulillah tercapai.

I guess memang dalam apa benda sekali pun, kena ada TARGET. Masa aku tulis tu aku just tulis je... congak-congak gitu... kalau ade rezeki, ade la... (standard ar mesti pikir camtu je). Tapi sebenarnya dalam kepala otak ni maybe dah tertanam visi and semangat to make that target came true. Syukur tercapai jugak.

Bukan senang. Seriously bukan senang. Ramai orang ingat aku dengan senang dapat apa aku capai sekarang (takde le apa sangat pun sebenarnya cos RAMAI lagi lebih power kot... aku peniaga picisan je huhuhu).

1st sekali, kena jimat. Ade nampak aku travel overseas or beli barang branded before? Takde. Sekali je ke Bandung and another trip to USS Singapore. Itu jelah. Sekali sekala ikut husband out station, dapatla merasa dok hotel sedap-sedap sikit haha...

Bukanla nak kata tak spend langsung, tapi masa awal-awal dulu memang tak. Sekarang je macam tak sedar diri sikit :P

Dari dulu aku tak pernah amik gaji pun dari 'untung' yang dapat jual barang kecil-kecilan tu... kalau perlu baru guna duit. Berniaga ni kena control bab tu cos cash selalu ada... boleh gelap mata. So kena ade tahap resistance to spend money yang tinggi hehehe...

Nak bagi beringat utk tak boros tu aku cepat-cepat sign up takaful for myself n kids. Bulan2 caj kad kredit. Husband and I also spend on 2nd house and some land... So aku slalu beringat "eh takleh belanja lebih dari xx amount cos nanti hujung bulan nak byr xx xx"

Dapat laki pun jenis jimat so kitorang memang takdela berabis duit melancong ke hape... teringin... tapi nanti-nantilah...

I started with only 2k starting fund. Then in 2012 aku mintak husband aku buat loan 13k for my bizz... and aku sendiri buat personal loan 10k - aku dah takde gaji and memang takleh mintak loan tapi kebetulan bank tempat aku buat kad kredit offer 10k loan tanpa apa2 supporting doc melainkan rekod pembayaran kad kredit aku yang cantik. Bulan depan abis la bayar...

Masa nak buka kedai ni aku jenuh timbang-timbangkan. Kalau boleh mesti nak modal 100k paling koman. Tapi duit simpanan (capital utk berbisnes) xsampai 100k. Oh wait, mak aku nak pencen so nanti dapat duit pencen kakakakaka (hampeh punye anak LOL) so yeah I asked my mom to invest 30K for my bizz. She agreed. But for the record she only gave 25K. Jadilah. =P

I didn't asked for Tekun loan, Mara or even PUNB. Lack of info and help (plus takde masa jugak nak research)... and deep in my heart, I think we could do just fine without it. And yes, alhamdulillah ok la lagi... dah nak masuk 4 bulan beroperasi, things looked ok. Boleh gajikan adik sendiri hehehe... Moga berterusan and lebih baik.

Lagi ape nak citer? Tu je kot. Takde ape sangat kan...

Cuma aku nak catat yang aku sangat lega cos dapat asingkan kerja dari rumah.

Sebelum ni Work At Home Mom kan, now dah tak kerja di rumah lagi.

Bezanya?
- anak hantar babysitter
- tak duduk di rumah lagi... tak masak :P (i hate cooking)
- customers pun tak datang rumah dah (privacy babeh!)

Part hantar anak ke babysitter tu sedih gak... tapi nak wat camne kan, takleh nak wat kerja... Raul dok kat babysitter till Thursday je. Friday aku angkut ke kedai (like today... I'm writing this with Raul in my lap)... Razin pulak dah start sekolah so petang dalam pukul 5 amik Razin and terus balik rumah.

Lega dan lebih teratur hidup aku bila bole pass some of the work to other people... to Hanis (my brother who helped at the shop) and to the babysitter.

Salute WAHM out there. Penat kan.... kerja tak stop.

My job pun tak stop lepas balik rumah. Cuma lega cos ade gak masa 'alone' kat ofis/shop where I dont have to worry about cooking, feeding the baby and cleaning up the mess he made.

Banyak plak bebel.

Sambung lagi bebila free.

Adios.

Written By Ryehana
alhamdulillah...
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....


Baby is 12 weeks today... the size of a lime.

Sometimes I don't feel like I'm pregnant.

This 3rd pregnancy is different a bit.

I haven't puked yet. Not even once. That is very different from my previous pregnancies. While I was pregnant with Razin & Raul, the 1st trimester is a very tiring one. I vomited a lot. Slept a lot.

People say I might be carrying a girl then. Since it's different than before. Well, I really don't know. If yes, then ok. hehehe... If it's another boy, I'm ok with that too. As long as the baby is healthy and normal, I'll be more than grateful.

On another note, I'm dreading the birth of this baby... yeah, still a longgggg way to go but I couldn't help to feel a bit panicky (whenever I think about it!).

Honestly, I don't really care if I'll be under the knife again. Well, at first I was adamant to have a normal birth... but then, oh what if I can't? If it's an emergency czer, that would be a hell lot of pain. You're hurt DOWN there, and you're going to be on operation too! I really don't want that T_T

I'm scared.

Like, really really scared when I think about giving birth.

Haihhhh.


Written By Ryehana
alhamdulillah..,
Wednesday, January 14, 2015
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...




Went to PD and Melaka last weekend. Raul tinggal hehehe... Mommy needs to relax and unwind. huhu



Masa baru sampai PD. Check in at Avillion Admiral Cove on 9th Jan 2015. We arrived from Perak at 10pm i think...




Makan bekal je for dinner. Kuetiow goreng huahua...



Esoknye lepas husband settle kerja, kitorang pun blah. Kejap je dok cni...




Razin penakut air. Ajak mandi pool tak nak.





Next, we went to Malacca. Just a few hours drive. Tak plan pun, Aku ingat nak pegi KL je... but hubby insisted that we went to Malacca, so off we went.

Stayed at Equatorial sebab paham-paham jela kalau weekend kat Melaka tu, jalan jem macam hape. So cari hotel tengah pekan senang nak pg mana leh jalan je... Nasibaik ade kosong.



Razin gayat tengok bawah.






Semput aku naik bukit ni!



Aku tunggu kat bawah ni jer sementara laki aku bawak Razin naik atas. Tak koser mak nak memanjat tangga. lenguhhh! hahahahampass... tak fit langsung :p




Melawat muzium.



Takde ape pun sangat. Just merayap jer. Ahad tu blah balik Perak semula... Amik Razin kat Beruas then lepas Maghrib balik Lumut.

Esoknye Razin sekolah.



Nak masuk 4 tahun dah March nanti.

Dah tak merengek tak nak pergi sekolah. Instead, sukerrr pergi sekolah. Tak sia-sia la masukkan dia awal bulan November dulu hehehe... masa tu dah jenuh berperang cos dia takmo pergi sekolah :P

So big already.

Haih... I feel old.



Written By Ryehana
alhamdulillah...
Friday, January 2, 2015
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...


Lama tak berblogging. Banyak nak catat tapi biaselah. Alasan klise: busy.

Aku cuba nak bertenang dan relakskan minda...

Lately... I mean, since last month, banyak berita sedih di kalangan kawan2 FB. Ade yang tak kenal pun (orang add aku cos nak beli barang kot?), ade yang memang kenal di alam maya.

Berita kematian, malapetaka, berita keguguran bayi dan anak didera...

Allah... Sedih baca.

Mak buyong cepat emo so I don't go online as much as I like to these past month.

Then berita banjir pula... Death because of flood, baby died because of starvation (i heard my siblings talked about this but haven't actually read about it). It's heartbreaking...

Then of course on the airplane crash. Devastating news indeed.

My heart bleeds to those affected.

It's a tough year... 2014.

Well goodbye now.

Dah masuk 2hb Januari 2015 dah masa aku menaip ni. Blogged from my phone... Woke up at 11.23pm tadi. Membuta sejak lepas Maghrib. Memang rehat gila2 cos now I'm at my Mom's. 

My laptop just died on me. Matilah aku cos segala benda aku save dlm lappy jer... All the invoices and payment receipts.. Tension tol. Nak format takleh cos orang tu cakap hardware problem. Hard disk aku rosak. Errr laptop tu memang dah berpuluh kali jatuh. Brand Toshiba. Now baru nak jahanam. Salah aku jugak tak backup kt external hard disk. Haihhh...

So I bought a desktop instead. Letak kat kaunter kedai takyah ubah2 tempat dah. Lantak situ... 

Azam tahun baru?

1. Hire more people to help.
2. Increase savings. Invest more.
3. Anak nak masuk 3 so kena tambah investment... kalau ade rezeki insya Allah.
4. Moga lebih rajin??

Rajin tu subjective. Rajin kerja yes. Rajin masak? Definitely no haha.. So tu yg kena improve kot? But then again, i hate cooking. Aku malas nak ngemas dapur sebenarnya. Aku suke tgk dapur bersih takde orang guna kakakakaka... *panggg*

Aku takde masa jugak nak masak. Serinoknya kalau org dh prepare potong bawang, blend cabai itu ini then tunggu masa nak treban masuk kuali je. Haa best kan. Tapi nan hado... So preparation tu yg aku maleh. 

5. Lebih positif.

Aku cuba la. Walaupun ade jer perasaan negatif and bad aura towards husband lately, aku cuba la nak positif. Dah ko yang pilih laki tak romantik and tak sensitif tu jadi laki ko kan, hadap jela. Ok positif, positif. Emo mak buyong tau kalau bab merajuk takde orang pujuk ni...*nangis tepi dinding*


6. Kurus?

Ahh persetankan lah azam kurus ni. Tiap2 tahun sama je azamnyer tapi hampeh. Huhhhh - mood give up


7. Last sekali for now, I wish for a good delivery on the third child. Taktau lagi czer  jugak or normal... Tak tau lagi boy or girl (baru 10 weeks kot). Yang aku harap, baby dan aku sihat sampai full term and lahir tanpa komplikasi.... And i wish the child is born healthy and normal insya Allah.

Wishlist gender of course la girl tapi kalau Allah nak bagi boy jugak alhamdulillah. Semua hero! Hahaha... 

Till then. Raul dah bangun for bf time. Daaaa


Alhamdulillah...
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
bismIllahirrahmanirrahim...



Haaa... dulu selalu nampak mak-mak orang post pertanyaan boleh ke breastfeed baby time preggy? Some doctors suruh stop, some said go on...

Selama ni aku dah set dalam kepala otak nak stop bf once preggy.

But now dalam dilema. Tak sampai hati oi! Baby baru 7 bulan... Time Razin dulu yer la... dah 2 tahun sesuai sangat dah stop kan... ni Raul kecik lagi. So aku masih teruskan bf dia.

Tapi sejujurnya Raul dari awal dah campur dengan susu tin... especially sejak hantar baby sitter 1 month (plus) ago.... kiranya 50% FM (formula milk) + 50% mommy's milk. Memang bekalkan FM sejak ke baby sitter cos aku MALAS nak pam and malas juga nak susahkan baby sitter.

Dan aku malas nak pikir serta pening2 mahupun stress bab susu. Ada tu ada la. Tak cukup, topup.. Ya, makin tua ni makin aku rasa tak perlu nak serabut otak hal kecik camni.

By the way, pregnancy memang membuatkan production susu drop gila-gila.

Before aku tau aku pregnant, aku sangatla heran kenapa beberapa minggu sebelum tu time malam MESTI Raul still nangis-nangis walaupun dah bagi susu (selak baju jer). Sampai kena mintak laki aku turun bancuh susu then baru lah dia lena tido sampai subuh. (Raul ni jenis bangun 2,3 pagi nak susu huhu)

No wonder la... rupanya preggy. Sebelum ni kalau dia ek ek nak susu, sumbat je boobs then senyap sampai Subuh. Mak pun rilek. hehehe... now no more T_T

Takpela... drop pun drop la.. still ade lagi susu tu... cuma tak banyak macam dulu. And so far takde la plak sakit-sakit contraction ke ape time bf. Ok kot....?

Anyway...


Just wanna share this beautiful nursing cover that Mama Panda's selling!

Brand Bebe Au Lait yang famous amos kat US nun...




I got myself the Bebe Au Lait Musling Nursing Cover in Isla.

Abaikan lebam bawah mata tu yer. huhu...


Aku suke nursing cover ni 1st sekali sebab cantik! Haha... and design dia memang tersendiri. Takkan sama dengan brand lain cos ni kiranya designer nursing cover la ni... Kan Gwen Stefani pun pakai. ehehehe...



Sebelum ni aku tak pernah pun ada nursing cover. Tapi sebab Bebe Au Lait punyer ni cantik and ade benda alah keras atas tu, rembat jela seketui.

Harga pricey sikit tapi normal la for designer collection... RM120 utk cotton biasa and RM126 untuk muslin.

Sesiapa berminat nak beli boleh ke link berikut: http://mamapanda.com/index.php/breastfeeding/nursing-cover.html


Well, I guess that's all bebelan arini.

Nak mendownload movie pulak (perasan tak busy padahal banyak benda pending huahua)

Till then.

Adios.


Written By Ryehana
alhamdulillah...