Sunday updates

bismIllah...


Yesterday, lepas abis kerja dalam 2.30 petang, Nini came to pick me up.
This weekend tak pergi umah Mak Yang kat Bandar Seri Putra pun cos nak rilek-rilek je kat umah... cuci baju and kemas ape yang patut... So, semalam lepas keje rasa cam boring... meronda-ronda sampai la ke Shah Alam. hehe...

Saje la ngusya tempat kami belajar dulu... dah takde mende nak buat... Pergi JJ Bukit Raja, pergi Plaza Alam Sentral and pusing2 seksyen 7 area pintu belakang uitm. Sempat la singgah makan kat Barra... huhu

Memang takde kerja... mengabiskan minyak kereta....

And oh, sekarang nak masuk I-City kena bayar RM10 ke??? Terkejut aku and Nini masa kena tahan ngan mamat-mamat jaga jalan. HUh... RM10? Tak yah le yer... kalo setakat nak usya lampu bercahaya warna-warni... koserr aku... Dulu takde plak kena caj-caj ni... hampeh. Waktu tu baru lepas maghrib... orang pun tak ramai... ingat nak lalu je, bukan nak benti pun... Mmm takpela... tak kenyang pun... :P

We bought some dvds last night....

Vampire Diaries season 1---nini punyer.
Sex and the city season 6 (finale)---aku punyer.

So today's activity is... tgk dvd sampai lebam.

Tak tau la kenapa, mood nak berblogging makin pudar these days.

Soal kerja...

Well, we are currently migrating to a new system so memang kepala pusing... semua branch ada issues. I have issues with this new system. Memang tak stable lg kot... aihhh tah la... semua orang masih dok terkial-kial nak apply... Yang aku fed-up, benda yang patutnya leh settle in less than 10 minutes dah jadi bertambah panjang cos system baru... semua masih learning... arghh... stress gak. But alhamdulillah sekarang dah nak okey sikit... cuma aku benci ngan benda-benda pending yang dah menimbun sebab superior yang suruh hold benda tu...

Ok Ana... toughen up! I'm going to be in charge of a new branch after this. Still have a lot to learn! huhu...

By the way, boss has told me that my last day of work in KL branch will be on 15th of November. After that cuti sampai la report duty in Lumut branch on 1st December. 2 weeks leave! yeayyyyyy! but then memang normal la dapat cuti 2 minggu kalau transfer... macam Abg Irman masa transfer ke KK and macam En Wan Rusdi masa transfer ke KB Airport. Hahaha... suke gile dengan cuti... tapi part keje tu dah bagi aku goosebumps sikit. Yela, I still don't know much... huhu... oh what the heck, kerja jelah! new place shouldn't be very busy aite?

But I was thinking to go check and still doing some work during my 2 weeks leave at the Lumut branch. Rumah aku pun dekat je ngan ofis baru tu... and currently that office is under renovation and what not... Maybe I'll just swing by to take a look and prepare stuff... we'll see... I know I'll be bored to death kalau stay kat rumah Lumut tu sorang-sorang time hubby pergi keje! huhu

*new office adalah di Marina Island. Tempat baru tu... :D

As for my pregnancy...

well, dah nak masuk 5 bulan... And I know by this time dah leh tau jantina baby dah! huhu... tapi hubby busy (baru balik sailing) and aku pun busy gak (boss tak bagi amik cuti before 15th Nov) so... tengok la camne... Patutnya wat checkup on 12th November... tp macam tak sempat. Maybe pas balik Perak leh wat kot.

I can feel baby's movement now... Selalunya kalau aku lapar and belum breakfast, memang akan terasa la macam dinding perut kena tendang-tendang sikit. Lepas makan baru takde ape. haha... my baby was hungry like me! Heee...

I still don't know my baby's gender...

Nama pun masih takde dalam fikiran...

Baby's preparation lagi la... takde beli ape pun lagi... maybe we'll start shopping for baby's stuff during the 7th month of pregnancy? is that too early? i don't know...

tapi takpe... pasni dekat ngan mak so ape-ape hal mak ada... and i know she's so excited about it.

Till next time.

Salam.


alhamdulIllah...

Of my transfer...work and family life...

bismIllah...


Calm. Relief.

Because I will be close to my family...
Close to those who can take care of me.

Close to my home and the familiar surroundings.

Soon, Ana... Soon.

Despite feeling a sense of relief and calm now that my boss is finally transferring me to Lumut early next month, I do feel sad too.

Sad at the thought of being apart of an environment that is full of laughter, smiles, teasing and back mouthing gossips. =)

What saddened me the most is... to be apart with those I love, adore and respect. And my colleagues... what we went thru... the catfights involved... etc. :p

I'm going to miss that.

I know there are great possibilities and insya Allah, a bright future if I stayed in this capital city of Malaysia. Promotions, money-making opportunities... etc. hmm, even my boss told me that she would've promoted me if I stayed...

But then, what about family life?

What is a marriage if a husband and wife do not share a life together?

What about this unborn child's future?

:)

I'm counting my blessings...

Instead of a new branch in Ipoh Airport, now my boss is opening a new branch in Lumut. Near my new house! Alhamdulillah...

And I'm 4 months plus pregnant! No more morning sickness and I'm feeling good... (kalau malas nak bangun waktu pagi tu biase laaa)

As for my family... Diyana has started working this week. Kerja biase-biase jela kat Seri Manjung. Good for her... She's bored to death at home. Cuma Opah jela tinggal sorang-sorang kat rumah time Mamito dan Amirul pergi sekolah...

Nini plak dah hantar resignation letter... she's not going to stay in KL after I'm gone. Elok gak.. I'm worried about her being alone here. So, she's looking for a new job. Anyone yang ada suggestion leh la gitau.. preferably in Lumut/Seri Manjung. Nak kerja ngan Kar Sin kalo leh... hehe... (she has a degree in estate management btw... a.k.a Pengurusan Hartanah)

All in all...
Life is good... for now. I take that.

Though I must say, I'm literally feeling butterflies in my stomach about my transfer.

The company is migrating to a new system to enhance our performance and quality. But this new system is a bit complicated and in my opinion, time consuming... But I guess in time, okay la kot.

So imagine... nak transfer branch baru... sistem pun baru... Faham-faham jela kalau sistem baru, mesti terkial-kial gak nak apply nanti... huhu...

And yes, everything aku kena handle la pasni. Nak hantar kereta ke puspakom, nak hantar kereta ke workshop, nak attend breakdown, nak cuci kereta, bla bla bla.. jenuh gak...

Tapi yang bagusnye, branch baru tak banyak kerja. Lagipun kat LUMUT je... bukannye busy macam KL. So hopefully dapat relaks sikit la... almaklum, perut pun dah memboyot.. huhu

eh apsal tadi beria tulis omputih sekarang tulis bm?

K lah, that's all for now.

Salam sayang dariku untuk semua...



alhamdulIllah...

:)

Baby updates

bismIllah...



Sunday night (10.10.10)

Aku tengah baring tengok tv di rumah Lumut ketika first time rasa sesuatu di perutku. Air dalam perut macam berkocak... macam ada buih ke ape... Masa mula-mula tu aku terkejut, ingatkan macam gas dalam perut. Yela, kan aku tengah banyak angin... And then, comes the second one. A tiny flutter... Husbandku sempat la pegang... And that was it. Pastu sampai sekarang tak rasa dah (or maybe aku tak perasan cos busy wat benda lain). Lepas kejadian tu, takdela pikir sangat dah... cos maybe betul just angin je kot?



Monday (11.10.10)

Routine checkup di klinik kerajaan. Doctor asked me ada rasa baby gerak tak? She asked me yang tak tau ape-ape ni? Macamla aku pernah mengandung sebelum ni... Anyway, I told her yang last night memang ada rasa macam air dalam perut berkocak time baring... but I don't know la tu baby ke... or just gas dalam perut. Cos 2 kali tu je jadi... Pastu tak rasa dah. Then she said, "Oh... baby la tu..."

So... it was the baby! ^___^

Happy la cos akhirnya rasa gak some movement... even if it was only a tiny flutter...

Oh, and know what? Berat aku dah naik 73.1 kg!! And my pregnancy is 4 months old... Masa first checkup pada 30 Ogos dulu berat aku 69.4kg. Huhu... dah kena nasihat jaga badan... Tapi nak wat camne, asyik lapar je!! T___T



Today (13.10.10)

Petang tadi masa kat ofis, aku rasa lapar sangat-sangat. Padahal dah 3 kali makan nasik... Sekali time breakfast kul 7.45 pagi, then makan lagi sikit nasi dan buah mempelam around 10 ish and then another plate of nasi campur masa lunch kul 12.50 tengah hari. Since aku rase macam banyak gile aku dah makan, aku tahan la tak nak makan lagi (plus badan aku memang dah naik giler wehhhhh)... time tu dalam pukul 5 petang kot.

Kemudian pedih gile perut aku... Then rasa nak terkencing. Masa kat toilet, lepas aku pee, aku rasa perut aku yang pedih sebab kelaparan tu. Dup Dup Dup Dup... I can feel strong beats. I think it's my baby's heartbeats. Lame jugak aku rasa. Then aku rasa nadi aku sendiri... ok, nadi aku slow je... so, the fast and strong heartbeats must belong to my baby then! Oh... what a joy! I was really happy!

Kuar toilet terus singgah kiosk sebelah Pak Cik Kafe and beli air soya dan roti 2 bungkus. Magically, lepas makan, heartbeats tu macam slow down sikit... But still, I can feel them.

(By the time I type this entry, those beats dah slow down... dah susah nak rasa or perasan... maybe tadi leh rasa kuat gile sampai macam bergetar perut cos aku lapar gile kot. :P)

Aku still ragu-ragu tentang degupan jantung baby aku tu... yela, entah-entah aku je super excited and could be imagining things... So, aku suruh my colleague, Nurul rasa perut aku... nak tau whether dia leh rasa ke tak degupan jantung yang laju tu.

And she did! She squealed like an excited kid when she felt those fast beats! hehe...

Oh... I sure am feel so grateful.

Thank you Allah...

Thank you for this lovely gift.

:')

I told my husband about this new discovery... and he was a little sad cos he's not here with me to experience it together... Haihh nak wat camane... tunggu bulan depan la baru dapat jumpa lagi... sailing je manjang... huhu


p/s: A little shoutout to our branch exec, Kak Rozy cos she just delivered a baby boy last Monday! Congrats!!

p/p/s: Another shoutout to Lt Sharudin a.k.a Odenk and wife cos baru dapat baby boy!


Great link: Check out this site for 'what to expect during the 16th week pregnancy'.


Salam sayang,

alhamdulIllah...

Macam-macam hal

bismIllah...


What a day...

Penatnyer arini... Menyapu rumah, mengemop lantai and masak...(masak?? haha)
Abis selesai mengemop, senak ari-ari... patutla orang kata pregnant women jangan buat kerja berat sangat. Tapi setakat menyapu and mengemop, takdela berat sangat kot? Tu pun aku selesaikan ruang bawah je... tak koser nak mengemas kat atas. Anyway, dah rest dah. Hopefully takde ape... huhu...

**Aku menyapu+mengemop time laki aku pergi cuci motor... Dia balik je memang terkejut tengok aku mengemop. So bukan la dia tak bertimbang rasa... aku yang gatal nak mengemop.

Hubby lak dari pagi beli sarapan and then pergi cuci Encik Nouvo kesayangan dia yang baru bawak balik dari KL. Nak dijadikan citer, last Friday Mr CC datang KL tumpang kawan sebab nak amik motor a.k.a Encik Nouvo... Elok la, motor tu pun memang dah 2 minggu tak gerak since ada Kancil...

Tapi, time aku nak bawak motor ke ofis (Mr CC datang dengan monorel cos kawan dia drop kat komuter Padang Jawa je), tayar belakang motor tu takde angin! Ape lagi... gelabah la aku... Aku suh Nini patah balik jumpa aku. Sementara tu, aku tolak la motor tu ke Esso berdekatan. Giler.... Letih ok! lame siot tak menolak-nolak motor ni...

Sampai Esso, pam angin tapi tak masuk. Rupanya kepala tiub dah jahanam. Terpaksa la tinggal motor jap kat Esso and cari orang tolong repair... Dari petang, sampai ke malam baru settle. T___T

Bawak gi ofis, Mr CC pun dah sampai... so sama-sama gerak balik. Itulah kisah Encik Nouvo yang dah merajuk dok KL. Duduk la engko di Lumut ni... heh.

Anyway...
akuarium dah retak ketika proses menukar air arini. Terpaksa beli akuarium baru...

Aku lega dah mop umah cos Mr CC mop tak memuaskan hati aku... Dahla tak nak sapu dulu, pastu bile mop, bukan nak bilas ngan air biasa... dibiar je hasil mop pertama ngan buih Fabuloso kering sendiri. Aku tak suke... kena gak bilas. Bukan cerewet, tapi... betul la kan??? :P

Malam kang nak kuar gi Giant beli barang-barang dapur... Dalam fridge tu ape pun takde... nak masak pun takde benda... so malam ni shopping!

Btw, semalam dah beli mesin basuh! Lega giler... Lagipun aku cuti sampai Selasa.. ape kejadah nak cuci baju kat kapal je kan? huahuahua... so, ape lagi yang tak cukup dalam rumah ni ek?

• Refrigerator. Checked.
• Washing machine. Checked.
• Television. Checked.
• Stove. Checked.
• Display cabinet. Pending
• Book shelves/cupboard. PENDING!! (must have!)

yang lain-lain (takde dalam list) lantak la dulu...


Hmm... macam seronok plak dok rumah buat house chores. Esok lak nak masak breakfast and hantar hubby depan muka pintu pergi kerja. Tak pernah merasa lagi walau dah kahwin masuk 4 bulan! T__T

Nini dah balik KL... tadi dia singgah Lumut untuk amik barang/pass barang-barang kat aku. Dia balik ngan Cik City (Hubby's car) cos kereta kompeni yang aku sewa time balik kampung kali ni Mr CC nak bawak... Accord kan... hehehe... Aku sewa H. Accord ni pun sebab Mr CC... Nak beli tak mampu... So, aku rembat la bawak balik kampung bagi Mr CC merasa drive and lanyak cukup-cukup... hehe... just for the record, i think a Honda Accord is a great car... walaupun 2.4 litre, fuel consumption is good. Ok la...

Esok aku kena pergi checkup kat klinik kesihatan di Sitiawan. Malas gile nak pergi tapi takkan la tak pergi kot... Nurse siap dah tefon suh datang cos sepatutnya aku pergi 2 minggu lepas, tapi lupe and takde masa...

Haih... bila lah nak transfer ke Perak ni... Bila fikirkan hal-hal berkaitan baby, mulalah aku tak sabar nak pindah Perak.

Know what?

Masa tidur di Beruas kelmarin, Mamito siap tunjukkan barut/bengkung yang dia dah beli. Ada besar, ade kecik. Yang besar untuk aku time berpantang nanti. Yang kecik untuk baby....

Alahai... cepatnye beli!!! Terharu aku... isk isk... nampak sangat Mamito tak sabar-sabar nak menimang cucu pertama... :')

K lah, banyak betul catatan aku kali ni. Bercampur-campur and tak ikut susunan. Hehe...

Till then....


P/S: Actually tengah teringin nak makan char kuey tiow kat Stadium or Hospital Seri Manjung or dekat cinema Sitiawan... tengok la kalau sempat pergi malam ni... rindu sey!

p/p/s: Alamak... malam ni ada siarang langsung wedding Dr Sheikh Muszaphar... Takleh miss!! huhu

Salam.


alhamdulIllah...

Bersabarlah...

bismIllah...


Early this morning, I got an sms from anonymous number...

"Salam. Eja miscarriage... Kena tahan wad kat hospital kulai.
Wad srikandi katil ##. Buat masa ni masih sakit lagi tetapi stabil"

Nombor phone area Johor... So aku rasa nombor suami dia agaknya.


Dear Roshalijah,

Bersabarlah... I know it must've been so hard for you... Siapa yang nak keguguran bayi? Baby dah 3 bulan plak tu... T___T

I'm counting my blessings...

I hope you'll get through this alright. Get well soon...

Fyi, Eja is my sister in law... Adik iparku... adik Rostafar... Time menyambut aku di Pahang masa kahwin dulu, husbandku gabung majlis dengan dia... Double-wedding di Pahang... But sorry, sampai sekarang aku takde gambar majlis kahwin di Pahang...

Ada gambar di bawah ni je... ni pun ambil dari Facebook anak saudara aku belah suami...

Gambar Busu and Ejah.

Time Ejah bertunang rasenya... cantik kan?
Busu: adik bongsu suamiku ( anak yg no. 11)
Ejah: Adik kedua bongsu (bawah Tapa since Tapa 3rd last)

yes, my husband comes from a big family.
11 siblings!

To all my readers, please pray for her recovery. And for me as well... I hope my baby and I will be fine and we'll make it through alright.

Salam...


alhamdulIllah...

Gave It All Away

bismIllah...


Gave It All Away by Boyzone

I ..... I will learn to live before I die
will learn to love and learn to try
not to give it all away (give it all away)
She ... she may be
the one that's meant for me
or for the man that I used to be (used to be)
til' I gave it all away (gave it all awayx2)

CHORUS
why hy hy I lay my heart down on the floor
I showed you love, you wanted more re re
but I gave it all away (cry ry ry ry cry ry ry ry)

you taught me to see the better truth
about yourself but about me too (about me too)
I was stupid over you
what could I do

CHORUS
why hy hy I lay my heart down on the floor
I showed you love, you wanted more re re
but I gave it all away (cry ry ry ry cry ry ry ry)

some people wait a lifetime for a chance like this
I've waited enough
baby, no, I won't let you go
I'm sick of tears and being fierce

(I won't let go of you, I won't let go of you, of you, of youx2)

CHORUS


p/s: This is my current ringtone... dah berapa bulan dah pakai ringtone ni... suke sangat lagu ni... tapi video klip sedih... diorg nangis sebab Stephen Gately dah mati, tapi suaranya masih tersemadi dalam lagu ni... :'(

On another note...
Weekend ni balik kampung... tak sabar... tak balik sejak raya!! T__T



alhamdulIllah...

I'm trying to avoid it...

bismIllah...


I'm trying very hard to avoid feeling depressed during my pregnancy... But it seems that is what I'm feeling...

Question

Is it normal to be depressed during pregnancy?

At first I was overjoyed to be pregnant, but as time has passed I've grown more and more depressed. I keep wondering what I've gotten myself into. I cry all the time, and sometimes I feel almost angry at my baby. My husband doesn't understand how I feel and doesn't know how to help. I've never been around anyone else who was pregnant so I don't know if these feelings are normal or if it's just me.

Posted: 11/09/2001 by a BabyCenter Member


I feel exactly like her...
My husband also doesn't understand... or he didn't stick long enough with me to understand... whichever comes first...



Best answer:

I have a 4 year old daughter and I am pregnant again....completely and udderly unplanned. We were very careful, but it's happened. I am torn apart now because I have decided not to terminate.

For all of you out there that are feeling hopeless, I know that it sucks. Being pregnant for some women, including myself sucks. I was miserable with my first daughter, but the moment you see that little face, everything changes.

My life ended up somewhere I did not think I wanted it to be. In fact I never wanted kids. I know it seems impossible, but it will get better. If this is your first, then you will soon see face to face the little being you carried for so long and your heart will absolutely melt. It's the hardest thing to do in life, but it is also the most rewarding.

When you meet that little person you will finally realize what it means when people say all those cheesy things. If this isn't your first, then just think about the love you have for your first baby, then times it by two. The love will be there.

My mom always told me that she couldn't imagine loving any child more than she loved my oldest brother, until she had her second child, and then third and finally fourth. She realized that our hearts are big enough for all that comes our way. No matter what you will get through this. I wish I could tell you that it gets easier, but it doesn't. You will however find a way to manage. You won't ever be able to imagine your life any other way. I know that's how I feel. And I am hoping this pregnancy goes better. I am so scared. Good luck to all of you reading this. I wish you the best.

posted 03/03/2007 by KrisLau


I keep praying to Allah to make me strong...

I know I shouldn't be feeling like this.

But... to not seeing your husband for almost a month and cannot contact him everyday (or every other day... dpt call 3 hari sekali pun aku dah bersyukur!) is so sad.... I can accept if we only meet on weekends.. at least, once a week, we'll be together... but sadly no... those things didn't happened to me...

Nak jumpa 2 minggu sekali pun susah... sekarang, kena tunggu sebulan baru dapat jumpa...

Sebab tu aku depressed... takde tempat nak meluahkan rasa, takde tempat nak bermanja... takde.. T____T

Aku tak macam suami isteri lain yang baru kahwin... hari-hari ada orang teman tido... peluk time tido... dengar segala masalah kerja...

Aku takde semua tu...

To me, biarla jauh tak dapat jumpa asalkan hari-hari boleh call, boleh 3G or webcam... dah memadai... tapi takde.... tak dapat nak buat semua tu... hari-hari aku berlalu seperti seorang wanita single tapi pregnant.

Kadang-kadang aku rasa nak lari...

Aku tak tahan.




alhamdulIllah...