2018. Razin turns 7 years old and like all 7 year olds, dia pun dah masuk Darjah 1.
Dah masuk minggu kedua Razin bersekolah. Hati aku tak berapa tenang cos aku sangat-sangat risaukan hal dia. Anak aku ni jenis senyap, lurus bendul and well a bit slow jugak la nak catch up especially when he still struggles with reading. So yeah. I'm a worried mother.
Aku seringkali bandingkan masa aku sekolah dulu. Then I looked at him. So different. A different era indeed.
Dulu aku pergi sekolah jalan kaki je. Mak tak pernah tunggu pun masa Darjah 1. Pepandai la ko survive. And I don't mind pun. Aku ok je. Cos I can read at 6. And aku jenis aktif berkawan etc.
Razin? Bole la jugak baca at 6 tapi tak cekap lagi. Still struggling. Aku tengok buku dia yang dia salin dari blackboard, tulisan comot2 and banyak huruf terbalik.
Is he dyslexic? Macam kat atas tu la tulisan dia kadang-kadang. Salin dari blackboard. If salin dari same page (yang selalu kena tulis berkali-kali tu), dia ok plak. Sebab tu ke dia slow reading?
And memang aku perasan dia selalu terconfuse huruf 'b' dengan 'd'. Alahai Razin... :(
Susahnye aku rase bila my husband is not by my side. Still kena PJJ until 2020! Can you imagine the horror?? We've been PJJ-ing since October 2016! It's been a year (plus). I'm so fucking stressed and feels so alone in raising the kids myself. Haihhh
Aku kesian tengok Razin still takde kawan at 2nd week of school. Masa amik dari sekolah, so far dia tak pernah menunggu aku lagi cos dia keluar je aku ada terpacak depan sekolah. And he's always alone. Orang lain jalan bersaing-saing, but not my son. Jalan sorang and not talking to anyone :(
Kesian sangat.
Masa 1st week dulu aku pergi sekali ke skolah dia ikut laki aku tunggu kat kantin (just that once) cos nak tengok camne dia nak membeli kat kantin. Alhamdulillah ok la.
He only eats one thing and that's what he's been buying for almost 2 weeks now. Nasi Lemak Pinggan - RM1. That's all.
Ade jual air jugak, RM1 tapi he said he didn't want to. He drank from his water bottle that was brought from home.
Ayah bagi RM2, but Razin insisted that I only give him RM1. So tu je la belanje dia. RM1 sehari. But I'm scared that he'll lose the money, aku letak jugak another RM1 dalam bag dia. And told him about the 'emergency money'.
Ok enough about Razin.
My 2nd son, Raul too has started preschool this year. He's turning 4 this May. And this fella, how excited and happy he was when I sent him to his kindy every day! He's always smiling and beaming :D
I sent Raul to other kindy than Razin. Not Little Caliphs this time, but Tadika Al-Kahfi.
Cheaper. Mak tak mampu lah nak bayar yuran beribu lagi di musim kegawatan ekonomi nih huhu... Plus, the kindy looks ok too. They have archery lessons on Friday, which is something new ;)
Starting January, Diyana is staying at the house taking care of my kids. Umi pulak now ganti Hanis jaga kedai. And she stays with me too.
Oklah. Till next time.
Bye
alhamdulillah...
