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Rasa macam lama tak menulis kat blog. Now tengah 'aman' sikit cos Raiq tengah tidur and 2 lagi hero ikut bapak diorang handover kunci kat tenant baru.

Haa rumah di Manjung tu asyik bertukar-tukar tenants je. Almaklum lah sewa mahal kahkah... bukan ape, nak bagi loan rumah tu takyah ditopup... so now semua bilik dalam Rumah Manjung ade aircond and dah ade kompeni nak sewa for their employees setahun. Jadilah.. setahun takyah mikir hal cari orang.

Anyway, we are still maid-less and I'm stressed cos I can't do much work while taking care of my kids.

Dah 2,3 minggu gakla aku tak mengadap kerja di kedai lama-lama. Masuk sejam dua je cos sama ada bawak Raiq or aku ade hal lain.

Raiq aku tinggalkan sekerat hari di rumah babysitter lama Raul. Leceh kan... Babysitter tu dah ada new kids yang dia babysat sejak kitorang amik bibik dulu. Haihhh dulu elok2 dah dia jaga anak2 aku je. Now ada budak lain, aku la kesian nak biar dia jaga ramai-ramai. Damn bibik. grrrr (smpai skrg marah lagi ni... astaghfirullahalazim!)

Susahnye nak memaafkan.


Masih lagi mencari helper yang leh mengasuh budak-budak ni di rumah. Last week seminggu Raul di kampung. Kitorang balik weekend je. Nasib baik lah 'kampung' tu dekat je, 40 minit dah sampai. Weekend ni bawak Raul jenjalan Zoo Taiping and bawak balik ke Lumut cos esok (Isnin) Opahnye ada appointment kat klinik. Mak Yang keje, Mak Teh ngasuh anak orang len tapi tak nak ngasuh anak sedara sendiri (dont ask). Bla bla... so amik la bawak ke Lumut. Nini kata akan amik Raul semula Selasa nanti.

This thing really stresses me out ok.

I want a nannyyyyyyy!!

Aku tak kisah sangat bab kemas rumah except for the laundry thingy (lipat kain, sidai kain) and preparing food for the kids during lunch. Bab mengemop, menyapu bla bla tu comes second. 1st and foremost, just take care of the kids.

Nak kena bayar gaji seribu jugak ke baru ada orang nak keje? Macam... err... agak mahal lah bagi aku. Cos aku ni keje fleksibel, most of the time aku balik tengah hari utk pam, makan, solat. Time tu jugak maid akan time out utk berehat & solat. Takdela kena perah tenaga teruk sangat? Hmmmm... pening pening...

Takde ke orang yg kurang kemampuan nak kerja and duduk sekali? Masa zaman mak aku dulu senang je dapat orang gaji... zaman sekarang ni susah betul cos orang sekarang memilih kerja. Stress mak


Dah malas pikir bab stress.

Selama aku menjadi 'work-at-home-mom' (again!) 2,3 minggu ni, memang la aku suka gak dok umah. If only I don't have to think of orders, parcels being packed carefully bla bla.. aku ok je. Masalahnye kena pantau gak keje staff/adikku itu... huhu


If only... if only... if only!

Hah. Berangan lah.


Update tentang #ananakkurus2016

- Berat masih belum berkurang kahkah... Baru 8 sesi. Grrr... susah nak meet up pun cos aku terkejar-kejar dengan kerja dan nak hantar anak orang jaga T_T

- Tak boleh control makan lagi. SUSAH. SUSAH dan SUSAH! kahkah... no wonder la tak turun-turun berat ku dari 83kg! =P


K dah bye.


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bismillahirrahmanirrahim...


Last update was 2 weeks ago, eh?

Wow... so many things happened in 2 weeks!

1st and foremost, my maid has run away! Dia lari last 4th Feb, I think. Damn. I was livid.

Berbakul sumpah seranah dihamburkan dari hati. Betapa aku sakit hati.

Tepat 3 bulan dia blah. Dah la tu, dia blah tetengah malam pukul 12.55am hari Rabu and she left all her stuff behind. She didn't even wear her shoes!

Aku tengok cctv berulang kali baru perasan dia tak pakai selipar. gile ah. Macam pencuri. And I was shocked and can't even believe that she has run away if not because of the cctv footage.

Bilik penuh baju dia, siap ada baju-baju kotor bersangkut bla bla... Sabar jelah.

Alhamdulillah takde mencuri. Takde hilang apa2. Lega.


2ndly, semalam ada la budak nak ngasuh anak datang. Aku baru nak tarik nafas lega. Alih2 hari ni dia kena balik Kedah dah cos ade emergency family. Dia bagitau sebaik aku balik dari klinik for Raiq's 6 months' check up.

She was supposed to go back early this morning, tapi sebab semalam aku dah kabo nak pergi klinik pagi ni so dia postpone sampai aku balik klinik. Alahaiii sedih aku tau... budaknya baik. Baru nak rapat ngan Raul. Dah jadi cmni... takde rezeki betul.




Sejak Bibik lari tu aku tumpangkan Raiq and Raul pada pengasuh lama Raul. Tapi dia sekarang dah ada jaga 2 orang budak. Kalau campur Raiq + Raul dah jadi 4 orang. 2 babies and 2 toddlers. Dia jaga sorang! Jenuh wei... aku nak jaga anak aku sendiri yg 2 orang ni pun pening.. ni dia jaga anak orang sampai 4. Pengsan. So terpaksa la aku mencari dan mencari.................




Work.

Dah 2 minggu lebih tak masuk kedai betul-betul and check segala mak nenek benda. I mean, yang betul-betul fokus la... takde. tak dapat pun. stress wehh.




aku penat.

alhamdulillah...

Nocturnal

Bismillah...

It's 3.18 am, Sunday 23rd August.

I still can't sleep.

Maybe because I slept for 2 hours this afternoon?

The baby is sleeping beside me now. Don't know for how long. He fell asleep just an hour ago.

Lots of things happened this past few days...

Abang Ama passed away last week. Right after Mak, hubby, Razin+Raul, Nini & Diyana visited him at Paya Jaras last weekend. I didn't go cos I'm still in confinement... Plus, I don't think I can stand 3-4 hours drive with all the kids! 

I felt so sad I didn't make it to see him one last time. Totally upset with the news...

You see, if you follow this blog from 2009 you would know that I used to work in KL at Hertz car rental. Abg Ama was the one who got me the job. I even stayed at his house in Damansara Damai for a few months... Back then I didn't have lots of money to give him or to "belanja" his kids. Haihh so freaking sad and guilty for not having the opportunities to pay back his help.

Semoga Allah tempatkan arwah di kalangan orang yang beriman... Insya Allah...

What's even sadder was to know his kids  are now without a father or mother. Arwah Kak Lela passed away long time ago... Since the youngest child was a toddler I think. And now he's fifteen. There were 5 of them. The oldest is 23-24yo (i don't remember). None of them are married yet. May Allah bless them. Insya Allah relatives are close by and willingly help out.

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It has been 26 days in confinement.

Yesterday I was shocked to find out my incision area (from c-section) is bleeding... Well not really bleeding yang darah mengalir-ngalir tu. But if you dabbed the incision area, there was blood on the tissue. Mamito freaked out. She checked and helped me wiped the area clean (I can't see clearly because I'm fat! Perut menggelebeh tutup luka czer)

Whatsapped my cousin who's a doctor and she said it looked like "wound break down". Yela.. Dah 3 weeks patutnya kering dan takde ape dah tau. Masa Raul dulu no such problem. Just sakit je tapi kat luka tu after 3 weeks takde ape dah rasanya... 

I was supposed to see a doctor yesterday tapi tak sempat. Busy kat rumah handle budak2. Monday jela. Tu pun kalau bleeding lagi. Hopefully tak dah. Stress tau bab luka operate ni. Sebab ni la aku benci operations! 

Rasa macam tak nak preggy dah. Fobia. Takut kena operate lagi (90% chances of being operated again... Remember, dah 2x czer ok!)

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Lagi beberapa hari je nak habis bulan Ogos. Nini ambil cuti sebulan je untuk tolong aku... Lepas ni she's back working kat Koperasi Beruas (yer, dia ade master tapi keje admin kat Beruas je).

Hanis still works for me. Tak tau la sampai bila kan... Tunggu dapat offer keje gomen je tu, kalau dapat dia bye2 ler kat aku. Huwaaa...

Sebenarnya boleh je nak hire adik-beradik sendiri kerja. Tapi kena la buat betul-betul. So far takde peluang, masa dan FUND. 

Btw, it is becoming tougher than ever with the ringgit dropping so bad now. Sebelum ni aku tak pernah kisah bab ekonomi... Now that I have my own bizz, memang terasa bahangnya. Orang bodoh je kata ringgit jatuh tu menguntungkan. Stupid gile. Haaa geram lak aku... 

I wish I have more knowledge on economics and calculations to comment more on the matter.. Rugi plak tak rapat dengan Pak Chu aku yang ngajor Economy kat UKM. (Segannnn...) Dia memang pakar le.. Nama lagi Associate Professor. Huhu...

Tapi setakat yang paling obvious adalah sales down la woi.. Even aku dah berbulan-bulan tak shopping baju budak kat US stores. Orang lain? Sama gak. Semua berjimat-jimat. 

Sales down ape jadi? Bungkuih ler! Nauzubillah min zalik.

Kat Manjung ni aku tengok ade 1 kedai baby milik orang melayu dah tutup bisnes and nak jual bisnes dia 50k. Aku slalu usya kedai dia cos tepi jalan utama, memang selalu nampak tutup, ingatkan sebab raya.. Tak sangka lak memang tutup bisnes!

Pehtu ade kedai baby bertukar nama - tak tau la nak lari dari tax ke or memang dah bertukar owner....

Ya Allah murahkanlah rezeki kami semua...

Aku sedang bertahan. Moga dipermudahkan... Insya Allah.

Wei dah pukul 4 pagi! 

Elokle aku cuba tidurkan mata ni. Kang jadi Mama Panda real punye if tak tido langsung sampai siang... Raiq ni dah uk ek uk ek niii... 

Adios!

Sempat lagi upload gambo. Ni Raiq sejurus selepas meghebeh (berak la maknanya).

Alhamdulillah...