Saturday, May 2, 2015

Pillow talks with Razin

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...


As we're getting ready to bed, I always asked him "Razin, sayang Mak tak?"

Usually he would say "yes". Sometimes when he's not sleepy and still wanna play, he wouldn't answer me.

Tonight he said "yer... Sayang"

"Sape slalu kejut Ajin bangun tido?"
"Mak"
"Sape mandikan Ajin?"
"Mak"
"Sape hantar pergi sekolah?"
"Mak"
"Kalau Ajin sakit, sape bawak pergi klinik?"
"Mak"
"Sape basuh berak Ajin?"
"Mak"
"Beli mainan? Sape beli?"
"Mak"
"Baju ajin, sape beli?"
"Mak"
"So.. Sayang Mak tak?"
"Sayang..."
"Nak dengar cakap Mak tak?"
"Dengar"
"Kalau Mak suruh tido, Ajin tido la... Paham?"
"Paham..."

"Ok, peluk Mak..."
And he hugged me, kissed me on my cheek.

I love you with all my heart, Razin. I just pray you would never forget that. I couldn't imagine my life without you.

Al Fatihah to those who just loved their young ones. Even though we are not related but we are mothers... The pain of losing a child....i can only imagine.

Good night.





Alhamdulillah...

1 comments:

amal said...

ala.. sebak pulak baca. semalam shaheem pun buat mama sebak. dia buat perangai so mama marahla sikit. pastu dah lps kena mrh dia nk ikut tok ayah dia kuar. dia ty mama, shaheem bleh ikut x? mama cakap boleh. kat tangga tgh kalut2 nak ikut tu dia tiba2 cakap, shaheem syg mama.. uhuhu sebak pulak rasa..... nyesal marah2 dia sobsob