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bismIllah...



Sunday night (10.10.10)

Aku tengah baring tengok tv di rumah Lumut ketika first time rasa sesuatu di perutku. Air dalam perut macam berkocak... macam ada buih ke ape... Masa mula-mula tu aku terkejut, ingatkan macam gas dalam perut. Yela, kan aku tengah banyak angin... And then, comes the second one. A tiny flutter... Husbandku sempat la pegang... And that was it. Pastu sampai sekarang tak rasa dah (or maybe aku tak perasan cos busy wat benda lain). Lepas kejadian tu, takdela pikir sangat dah... cos maybe betul just angin je kot?



Monday (11.10.10)

Routine checkup di klinik kerajaan. Doctor asked me ada rasa baby gerak tak? She asked me yang tak tau ape-ape ni? Macamla aku pernah mengandung sebelum ni... Anyway, I told her yang last night memang ada rasa macam air dalam perut berkocak time baring... but I don't know la tu baby ke... or just gas dalam perut. Cos 2 kali tu je jadi... Pastu tak rasa dah. Then she said, "Oh... baby la tu..."

So... it was the baby! ^___^

Happy la cos akhirnya rasa gak some movement... even if it was only a tiny flutter...

Oh, and know what? Berat aku dah naik 73.1 kg!! And my pregnancy is 4 months old... Masa first checkup pada 30 Ogos dulu berat aku 69.4kg. Huhu... dah kena nasihat jaga badan... Tapi nak wat camne, asyik lapar je!! T___T



Today (13.10.10)

Petang tadi masa kat ofis, aku rasa lapar sangat-sangat. Padahal dah 3 kali makan nasik... Sekali time breakfast kul 7.45 pagi, then makan lagi sikit nasi dan buah mempelam around 10 ish and then another plate of nasi campur masa lunch kul 12.50 tengah hari. Since aku rase macam banyak gile aku dah makan, aku tahan la tak nak makan lagi (plus badan aku memang dah naik giler wehhhhh)... time tu dalam pukul 5 petang kot.

Kemudian pedih gile perut aku... Then rasa nak terkencing. Masa kat toilet, lepas aku pee, aku rasa perut aku yang pedih sebab kelaparan tu. Dup Dup Dup Dup... I can feel strong beats. I think it's my baby's heartbeats. Lame jugak aku rasa. Then aku rasa nadi aku sendiri... ok, nadi aku slow je... so, the fast and strong heartbeats must belong to my baby then! Oh... what a joy! I was really happy!

Kuar toilet terus singgah kiosk sebelah Pak Cik Kafe and beli air soya dan roti 2 bungkus. Magically, lepas makan, heartbeats tu macam slow down sikit... But still, I can feel them.

(By the time I type this entry, those beats dah slow down... dah susah nak rasa or perasan... maybe tadi leh rasa kuat gile sampai macam bergetar perut cos aku lapar gile kot. :P)

Aku still ragu-ragu tentang degupan jantung baby aku tu... yela, entah-entah aku je super excited and could be imagining things... So, aku suruh my colleague, Nurul rasa perut aku... nak tau whether dia leh rasa ke tak degupan jantung yang laju tu.

And she did! She squealed like an excited kid when she felt those fast beats! hehe...

Oh... I sure am feel so grateful.

Thank you Allah...

Thank you for this lovely gift.

:')

I told my husband about this new discovery... and he was a little sad cos he's not here with me to experience it together... Haihh nak wat camane... tunggu bulan depan la baru dapat jumpa lagi... sailing je manjang... huhu


p/s: A little shoutout to our branch exec, Kak Rozy cos she just delivered a baby boy last Monday! Congrats!!

p/p/s: Another shoutout to Lt Sharudin a.k.a Odenk and wife cos baru dapat baby boy!


Great link: Check out this site for 'what to expect during the 16th week pregnancy'.


Salam sayang,

alhamdulIllah...

Macam-macam hal

bismIllah...


What a day...

Penatnyer arini... Menyapu rumah, mengemop lantai and masak...(masak?? haha)
Abis selesai mengemop, senak ari-ari... patutla orang kata pregnant women jangan buat kerja berat sangat. Tapi setakat menyapu and mengemop, takdela berat sangat kot? Tu pun aku selesaikan ruang bawah je... tak koser nak mengemas kat atas. Anyway, dah rest dah. Hopefully takde ape... huhu...

**Aku menyapu+mengemop time laki aku pergi cuci motor... Dia balik je memang terkejut tengok aku mengemop. So bukan la dia tak bertimbang rasa... aku yang gatal nak mengemop.

Hubby lak dari pagi beli sarapan and then pergi cuci Encik Nouvo kesayangan dia yang baru bawak balik dari KL. Nak dijadikan citer, last Friday Mr CC datang KL tumpang kawan sebab nak amik motor a.k.a Encik Nouvo... Elok la, motor tu pun memang dah 2 minggu tak gerak since ada Kancil...

Tapi, time aku nak bawak motor ke ofis (Mr CC datang dengan monorel cos kawan dia drop kat komuter Padang Jawa je), tayar belakang motor tu takde angin! Ape lagi... gelabah la aku... Aku suh Nini patah balik jumpa aku. Sementara tu, aku tolak la motor tu ke Esso berdekatan. Giler.... Letih ok! lame siot tak menolak-nolak motor ni...

Sampai Esso, pam angin tapi tak masuk. Rupanya kepala tiub dah jahanam. Terpaksa la tinggal motor jap kat Esso and cari orang tolong repair... Dari petang, sampai ke malam baru settle. T___T

Bawak gi ofis, Mr CC pun dah sampai... so sama-sama gerak balik. Itulah kisah Encik Nouvo yang dah merajuk dok KL. Duduk la engko di Lumut ni... heh.

Anyway...
akuarium dah retak ketika proses menukar air arini. Terpaksa beli akuarium baru...

Aku lega dah mop umah cos Mr CC mop tak memuaskan hati aku... Dahla tak nak sapu dulu, pastu bile mop, bukan nak bilas ngan air biasa... dibiar je hasil mop pertama ngan buih Fabuloso kering sendiri. Aku tak suke... kena gak bilas. Bukan cerewet, tapi... betul la kan??? :P

Malam kang nak kuar gi Giant beli barang-barang dapur... Dalam fridge tu ape pun takde... nak masak pun takde benda... so malam ni shopping!

Btw, semalam dah beli mesin basuh! Lega giler... Lagipun aku cuti sampai Selasa.. ape kejadah nak cuci baju kat kapal je kan? huahuahua... so, ape lagi yang tak cukup dalam rumah ni ek?

• Refrigerator. Checked.
• Washing machine. Checked.
• Television. Checked.
• Stove. Checked.
• Display cabinet. Pending
• Book shelves/cupboard. PENDING!! (must have!)

yang lain-lain (takde dalam list) lantak la dulu...


Hmm... macam seronok plak dok rumah buat house chores. Esok lak nak masak breakfast and hantar hubby depan muka pintu pergi kerja. Tak pernah merasa lagi walau dah kahwin masuk 4 bulan! T__T

Nini dah balik KL... tadi dia singgah Lumut untuk amik barang/pass barang-barang kat aku. Dia balik ngan Cik City (Hubby's car) cos kereta kompeni yang aku sewa time balik kampung kali ni Mr CC nak bawak... Accord kan... hehehe... Aku sewa H. Accord ni pun sebab Mr CC... Nak beli tak mampu... So, aku rembat la bawak balik kampung bagi Mr CC merasa drive and lanyak cukup-cukup... hehe... just for the record, i think a Honda Accord is a great car... walaupun 2.4 litre, fuel consumption is good. Ok la...

Esok aku kena pergi checkup kat klinik kesihatan di Sitiawan. Malas gile nak pergi tapi takkan la tak pergi kot... Nurse siap dah tefon suh datang cos sepatutnya aku pergi 2 minggu lepas, tapi lupe and takde masa...

Haih... bila lah nak transfer ke Perak ni... Bila fikirkan hal-hal berkaitan baby, mulalah aku tak sabar nak pindah Perak.

Know what?

Masa tidur di Beruas kelmarin, Mamito siap tunjukkan barut/bengkung yang dia dah beli. Ada besar, ade kecik. Yang besar untuk aku time berpantang nanti. Yang kecik untuk baby....

Alahai... cepatnye beli!!! Terharu aku... isk isk... nampak sangat Mamito tak sabar-sabar nak menimang cucu pertama... :')

K lah, banyak betul catatan aku kali ni. Bercampur-campur and tak ikut susunan. Hehe...

Till then....


P/S: Actually tengah teringin nak makan char kuey tiow kat Stadium or Hospital Seri Manjung or dekat cinema Sitiawan... tengok la kalau sempat pergi malam ni... rindu sey!

p/p/s: Alamak... malam ni ada siarang langsung wedding Dr Sheikh Muszaphar... Takleh miss!! huhu

Salam.


alhamdulIllah...

Bersabarlah...

bismIllah...


Early this morning, I got an sms from anonymous number...

"Salam. Eja miscarriage... Kena tahan wad kat hospital kulai.
Wad srikandi katil ##. Buat masa ni masih sakit lagi tetapi stabil"

Nombor phone area Johor... So aku rasa nombor suami dia agaknya.


Dear Roshalijah,

Bersabarlah... I know it must've been so hard for you... Siapa yang nak keguguran bayi? Baby dah 3 bulan plak tu... T___T

I'm counting my blessings...

I hope you'll get through this alright. Get well soon...

Fyi, Eja is my sister in law... Adik iparku... adik Rostafar... Time menyambut aku di Pahang masa kahwin dulu, husbandku gabung majlis dengan dia... Double-wedding di Pahang... But sorry, sampai sekarang aku takde gambar majlis kahwin di Pahang...

Ada gambar di bawah ni je... ni pun ambil dari Facebook anak saudara aku belah suami...

Gambar Busu and Ejah.

Time Ejah bertunang rasenya... cantik kan?
Busu: adik bongsu suamiku ( anak yg no. 11)
Ejah: Adik kedua bongsu (bawah Tapa since Tapa 3rd last)

yes, my husband comes from a big family.
11 siblings!

To all my readers, please pray for her recovery. And for me as well... I hope my baby and I will be fine and we'll make it through alright.

Salam...


alhamdulIllah...

Gave It All Away

bismIllah...


Gave It All Away by Boyzone

I ..... I will learn to live before I die
will learn to love and learn to try
not to give it all away (give it all away)
She ... she may be
the one that's meant for me
or for the man that I used to be (used to be)
til' I gave it all away (gave it all awayx2)

CHORUS
why hy hy I lay my heart down on the floor
I showed you love, you wanted more re re
but I gave it all away (cry ry ry ry cry ry ry ry)

you taught me to see the better truth
about yourself but about me too (about me too)
I was stupid over you
what could I do

CHORUS
why hy hy I lay my heart down on the floor
I showed you love, you wanted more re re
but I gave it all away (cry ry ry ry cry ry ry ry)

some people wait a lifetime for a chance like this
I've waited enough
baby, no, I won't let you go
I'm sick of tears and being fierce

(I won't let go of you, I won't let go of you, of you, of youx2)

CHORUS


p/s: This is my current ringtone... dah berapa bulan dah pakai ringtone ni... suke sangat lagu ni... tapi video klip sedih... diorg nangis sebab Stephen Gately dah mati, tapi suaranya masih tersemadi dalam lagu ni... :'(

On another note...
Weekend ni balik kampung... tak sabar... tak balik sejak raya!! T__T



alhamdulIllah...

I'm trying to avoid it...

bismIllah...


I'm trying very hard to avoid feeling depressed during my pregnancy... But it seems that is what I'm feeling...

Question

Is it normal to be depressed during pregnancy?

At first I was overjoyed to be pregnant, but as time has passed I've grown more and more depressed. I keep wondering what I've gotten myself into. I cry all the time, and sometimes I feel almost angry at my baby. My husband doesn't understand how I feel and doesn't know how to help. I've never been around anyone else who was pregnant so I don't know if these feelings are normal or if it's just me.

Posted: 11/09/2001 by a BabyCenter Member


I feel exactly like her...
My husband also doesn't understand... or he didn't stick long enough with me to understand... whichever comes first...



Best answer:

I have a 4 year old daughter and I am pregnant again....completely and udderly unplanned. We were very careful, but it's happened. I am torn apart now because I have decided not to terminate.

For all of you out there that are feeling hopeless, I know that it sucks. Being pregnant for some women, including myself sucks. I was miserable with my first daughter, but the moment you see that little face, everything changes.

My life ended up somewhere I did not think I wanted it to be. In fact I never wanted kids. I know it seems impossible, but it will get better. If this is your first, then you will soon see face to face the little being you carried for so long and your heart will absolutely melt. It's the hardest thing to do in life, but it is also the most rewarding.

When you meet that little person you will finally realize what it means when people say all those cheesy things. If this isn't your first, then just think about the love you have for your first baby, then times it by two. The love will be there.

My mom always told me that she couldn't imagine loving any child more than she loved my oldest brother, until she had her second child, and then third and finally fourth. She realized that our hearts are big enough for all that comes our way. No matter what you will get through this. I wish I could tell you that it gets easier, but it doesn't. You will however find a way to manage. You won't ever be able to imagine your life any other way. I know that's how I feel. And I am hoping this pregnancy goes better. I am so scared. Good luck to all of you reading this. I wish you the best.

posted 03/03/2007 by KrisLau


I keep praying to Allah to make me strong...

I know I shouldn't be feeling like this.

But... to not seeing your husband for almost a month and cannot contact him everyday (or every other day... dpt call 3 hari sekali pun aku dah bersyukur!) is so sad.... I can accept if we only meet on weekends.. at least, once a week, we'll be together... but sadly no... those things didn't happened to me...

Nak jumpa 2 minggu sekali pun susah... sekarang, kena tunggu sebulan baru dapat jumpa...

Sebab tu aku depressed... takde tempat nak meluahkan rasa, takde tempat nak bermanja... takde.. T____T

Aku tak macam suami isteri lain yang baru kahwin... hari-hari ada orang teman tido... peluk time tido... dengar segala masalah kerja...

Aku takde semua tu...

To me, biarla jauh tak dapat jumpa asalkan hari-hari boleh call, boleh 3G or webcam... dah memadai... tapi takde.... tak dapat nak buat semua tu... hari-hari aku berlalu seperti seorang wanita single tapi pregnant.

Kadang-kadang aku rasa nak lari...

Aku tak tahan.




alhamdulIllah...

Cermin diri tu dulu...

bismIllah...


This evening my sis and I was surprised with a note on the fridge. A note, you!! Siap BERPRINT lagi. So much trouble for a piece of paper that I crumpled and throw the minute I read it.


"lepas masak, basuh kuali... nak simpan makanan, letak dalam bekas bukan sekali ngan periuk... orang lain pun nak guna... bla bla bla"

Wow... that's something coming out from you! *claps*

Especially YOU of all people, was the pioneer to those things!

Baru sekali Nini letak periuk berisi bubur kacang dalam peti ais dah nak letak notis? What about the times when you and your friend dah makan, dah masak tapi tak basuh? What about those times (masa mula-mula aku di sini) you guys left all your dirty dishes on the sink FOR WEEKS??? Sampai kami nak guna dishes pun takde? Kami pulak jadi bibik kena cuci pinggan korang yang kotor sebab nak pakai...

And oh don't forget about your garbage.

What about the times when you leave the garbage for weeks in the kitchen without throwing it out? Sampai dah berbau and possibly berulat? Padahal the garbage was yours?? What about it? Did I put a notice for you to clean your dishes or throw away your garbage??

NO.

Paling senang aku buat adalah tak campur dah sampah ngan korang. Takde maknanye nak tampal-tampal notis ni sume...

Tapi baru sekali ni Nini lupe nak tukar bekas, dah letak notis. Macamlah korang tak pernah buat macam tu jugak. Please la...

Dahla tu, time mengemas peti ais tu aku ada je dalam bilik... diulang, ADA DALAM BILIK. Tak reti nak panggil?? Tak boleh bagitau nak kemas-kemas barang? Ni tak... Tetiba bila aku pegi dapur tengok-tengok ada periuk berisi bubur kacang dah kena campak kat sinki. Tell you what, aku TAK MAKAN PUN LAGI bubur tu!!! bertuah kan ada orang terlebih rajin macam tu...

Susah sangatkah nak cakap, nak bagitau?? Main campak je makanan orang??

That was last Sunday. Aku diam je... malas nak bising. Tapi memang terasa la cos makanan tu aku tak jamah lagi. Dahla banyak pulak tu... Sayang je bila aku kaut untuk buang... Ingatkan, kalau dah kuarkan makanan orang tu, nak tukar ke bekas lain ke ape (ai, nama lagi tengah rajin kan?)... tapi tak... biar terkangkang kat sinki kena masuk lipas, masuk air kotor... Satu jela... At least bagitau la aku. Bagitau..... susah sangat ke??

And satu perangai aku susah nak faham.

Rajin tak bertempat.

TIBA-TIBA je rajin nak kemas fridge, kemas dapur... tapi bilik air yang dah berminggu tak cuci and bersental tu takde pulak nak cuci? Asyik-asyik aku. Sampai berus jamban and pencuci jamban AKU DAH BELI pun takdela nak tolong sental ape-ape yang patut. Aku tunggu jugak la kalau ada orang nak cuci toilet, buang rambut yang melekat kat filter... tapi haram. Aku jugak la yang kena cuci. Tak sanggup nak letak bontot pulak kalau dah kotor sangat toilet seat tu kan. Tak pasal berkurap bontot...

Pointnye di sini, ADA AKU LETAK NOTIS?

Ade aku letak notis bila aku tak puas hati toilet tak cuci dan sampah tak buang?

Takde kan...

Sebab aku tau, kalau letak notis, kau akan terasa. Sebagaimana aku terasa bila kau letak notis. And nanti mulala masam-masam muka, gaduh. Orang yang tak pernah duduk umah sewa je letak notis ni sumer... percayalah..

Aku dah penah ada pengalaman di mana, start ko letak notis macam tu, people will hate you. Yela, macam ko bagus sangat? Ko cuci segala benda dalam rumah tu ke? Ko paling bagus ke? Semua orang tak perfect. So, aku tak pernah dan tak akan letak notis macam tu kalau untuk ditampal di rumah yang disewa. Kolej kediaman tu lain la...

Pengajarannya di sini, cermin diri sendiri before buat sesuatu.

Kalau nak menegur orang, seeloknya bagitau or cakap sendiri.. takde nak guna nota-nota ni...

Macam jugak kalau kau kerja kat mana-mana kompeni... ko akan diberi verbal warning dulu, baru diikuti warning letter. An educated person like you must have known all this.

Tak ada orang yang perfect dalam dunia... tapi ianya terpulang pada diri kita macamane nak tegur seseorang tu. And in your case, you suck at it.

It's not that I can't accept criticism or teguran.. tapi susah la kalau cara tak betul... tambah lagi, orang yang tegur tu pun lebih kurang je... =)

No hard feelings... just nak luahkan ape yang aku rase plak. heheheh

Sekian ketidak puas hatian aku.


alhamdulIllah...