Tuesday, November 26, 2013
bismIllah...


Been meaning to blog but I just couldn't find the time. Alhamdulillah finally mlm ni dapat jugak menulis sikit...

I had a breakdown today. I don't remember when was the last time I cried because of stress. I felt suffocated. Felt as if the walls are closing in and I was trapped.

I was lonely. I miss my son eventho I have only slept one night without him last night. Left him in Beruas and I had to get back to Lumut for work. Asked Hanis and Afnan to accompany me for the night since hubby was away... But they left early in the morning... around 9am i think.

I was busy at first. Today is the pay day. People bought stuff, and people paid their monthly installment. I was so busy I have no time to cook.

I was hungry. My stomach then ached... Gastric. But I had lots of stuff to pack for deliveries. And I was waiting for one potential customer who was coming over to test baby carriers... I only managed to go out at 5pm for lunch. T_T

And before that, I had spent 30 minutes of crying because I was so angry when hubby told me he'll only be back next week. He was supposed to come home tomorrow! I was mad like hell.

This week is a busy week... just like how 'minggu gaji' always been for me. I need his support... but what can I do? He's away in Sabah because of work. And I'm alone cos Mamito does not want to stay at my place. She said "tak larat nak naik turun tangga" (cos I turned the bedroom downstairs into my office so there's no bed in that room). I was so sad I can't stopped crying for good 30 minutes. Mad at hubby... mom... myself....

I hate to leave Razin in Beruas. Cos I'll miss him sorely. But I simply cannot cope taking care of him alone during my BUSY WEEK.

Which was why I was depressed. I was sad.

I had no choice but to bring Razin with me tomorrow... I hope I won't shout so much. And I'm worried of what to eat. I have no appetite with my own cooking :(

I still have morning sickness eventho I'm no longer in my 1st trimester.

Darn it.

I don't feel so good. Writing back all these make my head aches.

Need to lie down... after all, it's 2am now. Adios.


Written By Ryehana
alhamdulIllah...
Thursday, November 7, 2013
bismIllah...


Preparation for new baby?

Wishlist?

Well... let's list them now! hehehe... tengah bosan-bosan teman Ajin tengok Upin Ipin ni, ape kata kita update blog le plak hehe...


1. New baby carrier(s)

I want to try new brand of baby carriers I haven't tried before. Any maybe try to find love in wrapping? Dulu pakai wrap kejap sangat cos only using Moby and God knows the material is not suitable for hot weather! Asyik berpeluh je... so maybe this time I'll try other wraps.. gypsy mama bali breeze or jumpsacbaby's midnight rainbow? I still have 1 wrap in stock that I kept for myself. hehe...

As for SSC, I've bought Manduca. I did not find love the first time I held it in my hand (which was around 2 weeks ago) because of its buckles... Lebih kurang macam Beco. Terlampau pentingkan safety kot? Kena guna dua tangan untuk unbuckle and I hate things like that. So aku bagi orang try and review dulu cos I don't have time for it yet. I didn't event carry Razin in it yet (malas... lagipun pregnant)

Oh well... hopefully in time, after getting used to it, I can find the soft spot. :)



I bought this one. It's up for rental sementara tunggu the new baby pops out. Hehe




2. New stroller(s)

Haha... perlu ke? Ntah le... tapi kalau ikutkan masa Razin dulu, time newborn memang stroller+carseat travel system ni sangat-sangat penting. We used Maxi Cosi carseat that we attached to Quinny stroller most of the time while we're out. 

I think I'm going to stick to that. Only that we're going to change our old Zapp Xtra to the new one that has folding seat. I love Quinny strollers. Especially the Zapp Xtra. It's more compact and sleek looking (to me) than Buzz or Moodd. Hmm I was never a fan of bulky and big strollers. I might admire the smoothness of big strollers (the Buzz and Moodd has great suspension system), but the bulkiness turns me off.

It's not like the strollers couldn't fit into our SUV, well of course it can... but... hmmm... not for me. I prefer to have strollers that do not take much space in our boot.

Fact is, I know for certain how long/frequent we're going to use the stroller. I'm a  babywearing mama, ok? hehehe... I prefer wearing my baby. So let's save our money on something else... :P



3. Carseat

Haaaa... ni dalam dilema. Sebenarnye, if we want to have travel system (to put carseat on stroller), kena la beli carseat yang kecik comel. Yang memang untuk newborn till 1 year je (manufacturer's recommendation smpai 1year or 13kg, tapi sebenarnya sampai beberapa bulan je kalau baby jenis chubby... macam Razin dulu, sampai 10 months je muat Maxi Cosi Cabriofix tu)

Razin punyer infant carseat masih ada lagi dalam stor. Maybe we'll use that? I don't know yet. Yela.. tu pun beli preloved. Macam kesian plak new baby pakai 'third hand' punyer huhu... Lagipun dulu I didn't know better. I wasn't a "businesswoman" ekekekeke... Oh well, we'll see.. kalau distributor buat sale, bole la beli baru.. aku menunggu je ni... :P

On the other hand, I'm planning to buy Maxi Cosi Opal for the new baby. Carseat ni memang best. Untuk newborn sampai budak dah besar... Harga je tak best. Dah lama aku mengidam nak beli... sejak Razin dulu lagi tapi sayang duit! haha...

Tengokla mana yang ada rezeki... dilema oiiii... kalaulah kayaaaaaa (berangan tak kena duit)


Maxi Cosi Opal


Quinny Zapp Xtra + Maxi Cosi Cabriofix




4. Breastpump?

Perlu ke? Yang lama (Spectra 3) ada lagi dalam stor tapi aku tak tau mana laki aku simpan haha... Ikutkan nafsu nak breastpump baru. TAPIIIIII... ape kejadahnye nak pump beria sangat kalau aku dok umah and boleh je direct feed baby kan? ekekekeke... gedik betul. Tapi aku nak jugak ajar dia isap dari botol macam Razin. Direct bole, botol pun bole. Senang ckit... which means, I still have to pump la kan... rindunye zaman pumping2 ni.

Semoga with new baby ni leh la lama sikit breastfeeding... since aku pun dah takde employer kan? =D


5. Baby cot




Hmm... rasa macam nak beli cos masa Razin dulu takde... tapi, macam tak berapa praktikal cos MESTI co-sleep jugak (senang nak bf malam-malam). But oh my God these are so cute! Teringin lah.

We'll see what hubby says about this. And tengok bajet gak le. kwang3... kalau teringin sangat beli jela murah-murah sudey. Takyah berangan nak Galipette punye yer... =P

Time Razin dulu ada tapi yang  plastic and senang buka tutup tu. Sampai sekarang ada lagi cot tu. Cuma biase le mak dia ni nafsu barang baby tu melampau2 sikit. huhu



6. Bouncer/swing/rocker

Okeh, masa Razin takde beli bouncer ape kejadah ni. Ramai kawan-kawan seangkatan beli Fisher Price Rocker dan sebagainya... tapi aku tak beli. 

Kenapa aku tak beli eh?? Hmmm... mahal (bagi aku) and sebab tak pakai? Ohhhh sebab Razin dah ada Jumperoo hehehe

But this time cam teringin la nak beli... 

Got my eyes on Nuna Leaf and Mamaroo Swing (oh and Baby Bjorn Babysitter too actually... tapi i dismiss it quickly). Selepas mengsurvey and membanding-banding, aku rasa aku akan beli Nuna Leaf jela kot.

Sebab yang tu ada distributor kat Malaysia. Ape2 masalah senang (aku memang prefer beli dari distributor dari import sendiri or join pre-order yang kena tunggu berbulan-bulan) cos kalau beli direct dari distributor, confirm la benda tu original...ade warranty bla bla... And suke Nuna Leaf ni sebab dia leh pakai sampai budak besar... Mamaroo tu takleh. kalau tengok video, rasanya sampai baby 6 bulan je kot muat. Ntah le... however, Nuna Leaf ni ade jugak kekurangan dia.. dia swing dalam seminit je... bukan berterusan. ahh but I don't care. I want. =p

Sesape nak order benda alah ni sila pm aku. Ade harga best untuk 1st pre-order ;)
Sila search kat Youtube kalau nak tengok Nuna Leaf in action. 



7. Baju-bajan

Hapah pun tak beli lagi cos tak tau gender. Lagipun aku ni bab baju-bajan takdela excited mana nak shopping hehe...


Lagi ape ek....

Hmmm  tetiba blank dah kepala otak aku.

Yang lain-lain seperti duit for aqiqah, baby names ade jugak prepare dah. Takmo la jadi macam Razin dulu. Lambat benor buat aqiqahnye.

And as for baby names, aku ada banyak nama untuk baby boy je hehe... utk girl takde idea langsung.

Tak sabar nak tunggu beberapa minggu lagi untuk tau jantina.

Till then. Adios

Written By Ryehana
alhamdulIllah...
Monday, November 4, 2013
bismIllah...



Just a quick update untuk mencukupkan players kutu-kutu di group Mama Panda Store.

Sekarang ni ada 5 kekosongan lagi untuk kutu Babyzen Yoyo strollers.



Start bayar hujung bulan November ni. Habis bulan April tahun depan. Kekosongan tinggal untuk giliran bulan March and April sahaja.

Harga: RM1580 (dah masuk pos semenanjung)
Players: 6 orang = 6 bulan
Bulanan: RM250

Tapi bila giliran anda sampai untuk dapat barang, kena pay extra so jadi RM330 (sebab total RM1580 kan)

Let say anda pilih untuk giliran March, so bulan March nanti anda kena bayar RM330 dan barang terus dipos kepada anda. Then lepas tu sambung le bayar RM250 sebulan... :)

Ni jadual bayaran untuk lebih jelas:

Nov - RM250
Dec - RM250
Jan - RM250
Feb - RM250
March - RM330 (dpt brg)
April - RM250


Kutu Babyzen Yoyo ni tak termsk Boba Air baby carrier yer. Tapi ade diskaun kalau nak tambah ;)

Berminat?? Please pm me in Facebook or just contact here.

Anda kena ada FB akaun yang genuine dan aktif.


*Serious players only. I help you and you help me by paying the kutu in time :D*










p/s: Kutu Quinny Zapp Xtra 2.0 pun ada tapi tu mahal sikit monthly. RM300 sebulan selama 6 bln and masa turn dapat kena byr extra RM50 (so jadi RM350)

Written By Ryehana
alhamdulIllah...
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
bismIllah...


Masuk angin?

Ya, itu yang aku rase sekarang. Macam semalam, aku tengah tahan nak muntah ni. uhuhuhu... Memang morning sickness teruk jugak kali ni. Takleh tido cos sendawa, kentut-kentut and air liur macam banyak je. Tanda nak muntah.

Bukanlah aku merungut. Jauh sekali menyesal sebab pregnant (gile wehhh!). Ni yang aku nak sangat setelah sekian lama (sejak Razin umur setahun lagi, to be exact). Tapi yela kan, dah lupe rasa pregnant tu camne. Hehe... so muntah-muntah and loya tekak ni macam pengalaman baru perlu dicatat. kahkah

Hari ni akhirnya aku masak nasik setelah lama gile tak masak. Semuanya beli cos duduk dengan Razin je pun. Kalau ade suami baru malu sikit tak masak. =p

Dan arini aku masak jugak la sardin. Goreng telur. Tu jela. Sebenarnye nak makan ikan goreng garing2 tapi takde ikan dalam peti ais. Memang tak masuk ikan umah aku ni kalau suami aku takde cos aku malas nak siang ikan. And memang sepanjang hidup aku tak pernah siang ikan pun. Laki aku yang buat. kwang kwang kwangggggg (pecah rahsia). Dan jugak, aku tak reti nak beli ikan. Errr...

Dah jemu makan ayam. Tapi sebab lapar, makan le jugak malam ni. Takde menggaru lagi setakat ni.

Aku rasa next week nak cuti seminggu di Beruas. Letih le dan kesepian duduk berdua je dengan Razin. Nasib baik jugak ade Razin. Dia lah peneman setia aku. Alhamdulillah great bonding time sebelum dia dapat adik baru. huhu...

Laki aku balik 6hb Nov ikut kapal. Tak sabar dah ni... rasa tak seronok sangat takde orang jaga.

Dulu, masa pregnantkan Razin, aku duduk di KL sampai kandungan 5 bulan lebih. Di KL, kami menyewa 4 orang satu rumah. Aku duduk dengan adik aku, Nini. Dia la yang tolong masak and drive (bawak Kancil lepas perut dah besar, sebelum tu naik motor ulang-alik Taman Maluri-Jln Sultan Ismail. Dekat je kan? Tapi dengan MOTOR ok.. dengan Nini bonceng lagi-since dia takde lesen motor.. dengan jalan jem nyer... sedih btl ingat balik)

Sekarang? I really wish I have someone who can cook for me! Kerja aku nak melepek je... uhuhu... malas dan tak larat tahap dewa bab masak. Dengan muntahnye lagi. Cepat la abis fasa muntah monggek ni. T_T

Nak balik kampung....

Nak makan masakan Mak je. HUHU

Anyway, baby updates:

I'm in my 9th weeks. Just a couple of days to go into week 10.

How your baby's growing:

Your new resident is nearly an inch long — about the size of a grape — and weighs just a fraction of an ounce. She's starting to look more and more human. Her essential body parts are accounted for, though they'll go through plenty of fine-tuning in the coming months. Other changes abound: Your baby's heart finishes dividing into four chambers, and the valves start to form — as do her tiny teeth. The embryonic "tail" is completely gone. Your baby's organs, muscles, and nerves are kicking into gear. The external sex organs are there but won't be distinguishable as male or female for another few weeks. Her eyes are fully formed, but her eyelids are fused shut and won't open until 27 weeks. She has tiny earlobes, and her mouth, nose, and nostrils are more distinct. The placenta is developed enough now to take over most of the critical job of producing hormones. Now that your baby's basic physiology is in place, she's poised for rapid weight gain.

How your life's changing:

You still may not look pregnant even if your waist is thickening a bit. You probably feel pregnant, though. Not only are morning sickness and other physical symptoms out in full force for most women, but you may feel like an emotional pinball as well.
Mood swings are common now — it's perfectly normal to feel alternately elated and terrified about becoming a parent. Try to cut yourself some slack. Most women find that moodiness flares up at around six to ten weeks, eases up in the second trimester, and then reappears as pregnancy winds to a close.

Haha...

Suka part 'How your life's changing' tu. Memang tepat. Morning sickness in full force! Huaaaaa... Kalau ikut record sebelum ni, masuk 3 bulan je aku dah ok. That's another couple of weeks. huhu....


“Ya Allah, peliharalah anakku selama ia berada didalam perutku, dan sihatkanlah ia, Engkaulah yang menyembuhkan, tidak ada penyembuhan selain penyembuhanMu, penyembuhan yang tidak meninggalkan penyakit. Ya Allah, rupakanlah atau bentukkan lah dia yang ada diperutku dengan rupa yang baik, dan tetapkankah ke dalam hatinya iman kepada Engkau dan kepada Rasul-Mu."


Written By Ryehana
alhamdulIllah...
Monday, October 28, 2013
bismIllah...


1. Pregnancy

Feeling blue... can't sleep. Tengah melawan rasa mual. Nak muntah je rasa. Semlm balik Beruas, so kat Beruas dekat 3,4x jugak aku muntah malam semalam. Sampai Opah risau... Padahal, biase le tu... Masa Razin dulu pun sama. Projectile motion sampai kotor-kotor dinding bilik air kena muntah. huhu...

Rasa mual datang waktu pagi dan waktu malam. Sebab tak makan dan takde aktiviti kot? Ntah.

Anyway, since takleh tido, maka nak update blog le kejap.

Aku mendapati kulit aku makin sensitif. Takleh makan ayam, kalau makan mula la gatal. Haihhh...

Perut dah macam makin membuncit. Pelik. Baru 2 bulan. But Mamito said, "Abis tu awak tu anak no.2 dah. Biase la makin besor le perut tu"

Yeke macam tu?

Ape-ape jelah.

Razin dah tido selepas berperang and melompat-lompat katil. Manja ya amat sekarang ni. Kesian pulak memikirkan akan berkongsi kasih nanti. :')

Tapi Razin dah besar kan... tahun depan dia dah 3 tahun. Time dapat baby nanti insya Allah Razin dah 3 tahun 2 bulan :)

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2. Business

I'm easily exhausted and annoyed these days.

Rasa nak marah je bila customers tanya soalan yang benda tu boleh dicari di website mamapanda atau di FB page. Aku terasa aku macam buang masa jawab soalan-soalan trivia macam tu.

Astaghfirullah... aku tak patut rasa macam tu. They are my customers for God's sake! Tapi tu la... bila mood swings aku datang mula la aku rasa macam geram je... At the moment, whenever I felt that way, I refrained from writing anything back/replying emails. Tunggu reda and rasa free baru balas. huhu...

Emo mak buyung. If only people would understand. But it's not their job to understand your situation. Who cares you're having morning sickness or you can't manage your time, kan? uhuk uhuk...

Anyway, read some interesting discussion on baby stores the other day that I would like to jot down in my blog.

There aren't many famous baby stores by Malay. Kalau ada pun, banyak yang tutup kedai cos takleh bersaing dengan kedai bangsa lain. Mostly sebab harga. Kuantiti. Dan servis.

Buat aku berfikir banyak. Bukan senang buka kedai. Tapi bila ada kedai, ada credibility (bagi aku lah! haha). Yelah, lebih profesional dan lebih terurus kan... sebab tu nak jugak ada kedai! huhu...

Cuma bila baca perbincangan dan perkongsian orang, buat aku menimbang balik keputusan tu.

First sekali, modal kena besar. I mean like really big. I have a vision in my head... what kind of stores I would like to open... the concept, the decorations, the products etc. Oh yeah... I found deep pleasure dreaming of those things in my free-er time. Hehe... But heck, I hate making loans. I really do. Tapi mati la kan kalau nak guna duit sendiri??? Ntah bila nyer dapat. kwang3

Aku dah la gile barang branded for babies ni. Ok, don't get me wrong... Aku bukan la gile barang berjenama sangat. Heck, my clothes are 90% jenama Scarlet je kot! hahahaha... but I'm crazy and very fussy on baby's stuff. Aku selekeh takpe, tapi barang budak kena best-best. wakakaka... but in my defense, takdela kronik sangat ok. Aku ada je beli barang dari china. Cuma aku tak jual jela. Pakai sendiri... macam mainan Razin yang conteng whiteboard etc tu. Aku just... nak jaga standard Mama Panda. Mama Panda jual barang branded je. ala-ala butik baby exclusive gitu. hehehe...

Well, dah kalau camtu, modal berapa la plak agak-agak??

Pergh. Berpeluh kalau nak kira-kira and dapatkan total. Mungkin ni kelemahan aku jugak. Tak berani??

Kata orang, nak seribu daya kan... huhu... aku just... risau la...

Sekarang yang kedai baby yang femes is FM and OBW (pandai2 la fikir sendiri ni singkatan untuk apa ye?). Memang best la cos barang banyak, ada product sendiri (FM) and ada branch. Branch diorang sendiri yer... bukan yang difrancaiskan. Bagus kan??

Yang lebih bijak, owner dua2 kedai ni Chinese. Tapi kalau kat kedai FM tu semua staff dia Melayu. Kalau kat baby expo pun semua Melayu sampai orang ingat tu kedai Melayu. Padahal of course le bukan.

No wonder la banyak kedai Melayu tutup. Branch L***T*** (francais kalo xsilap) kat 2,3 tempat dah tutup... susah nak bersaing. fuhhh... bukan senang nak senang oi!

Beza dengan FM and OBW, diorang buka branch diorg sendiri, bukan bagi lesen pada franchisee. Hmmm one thing I learnt from the discussion was, "jangan taksub nak kaya cepat dengan bagi lesen/buat franchise. Kena mantapkan kita punye bisnes jugak. Jaga kualiti. Jaga nama baik 'jenama'. Sebab kalau dah franchais, luar kawalan kita dah. And then kesian franchisee kalau gulung tikar sebab tak cukup ilmu/tak cukup kuat brand tu untuk sokong diorg"

Gitu lah lebih kurang yang aku paham. Ahh aku pun bukan pandai sangat. kehkeh... sekadar perkongsian untuk catatan dan renungan masa hadapan.

Ermm kang orang bace blog ni ingat aku racist pulak. Tapi aku tulis untuk motivasi gak le. Orang Melayu, Islam akan tolong orang Melayu jugak insya Allah... derma, zakat... disalurkan pada orang Islam. Sebab tu penting untuk orang Islam martabatkan ekonomi kan... pergh macam ahli politik plak dahhh

Dulu aku tak penah amik pusing pun bab beli barang kat kedai mana. Bagi aku sama je. Asal MURAH. Kan? Ramai orang macam tu... tapi hati aku terkesan bila ramai customers bagitau diorg beli barang dgn aku sebab aku MELAYU dan sebab diorg nak tolong orang Melayu. Tak terharu ke? *ok habuk masuk mata*

Baru la terbuka bijik mata aku ni... (ada la 3,4 orang pernah emel dan msg di FB bagitau camtu...)

They could get cheaper in other stores, but still they buy from me. Terharu aku. Serius.

So I'm trying my best to give good service, fast response etc. Susah cos aku kerja sorang-sorang... ada anak, jaga sorang2, laki blk sekali sekala...but, aku harap aku boleh dan kalau ada mistakes/lambat, my customers would understand and forgive me. Insya Allah ada rezeki lebih, aku akan tolong orang yang memerlukan. After all, duit bukan boleh dibawak mati pun. Aku mengharap dengan sangat semoga aku tak lalai dan lupa perkara paling penting tu. Yela, nama lagi manusia...mudah tergoda dan LUPA.

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3. House & family

Sekarang aku dah lega sikit cos Rumah Manjung dah ada penyewa. Baru je dapat duit deposit last Friday and I gave the keys then. Settle bab rumah dan no more worries on potongan loan rumah ke-2 tu. At least, not for a while la. Aku tak tau tenants tu nak sewa sampai bila. Tengok dari rupa, macam kejap je huhu...

Bab harga sewa, mulanya konon nak sewa mahal jugak la... Contoh; bayar ansuran bulanan RM100, tapi nak sewakan RM500. hihihi... Tapi tak jadi la. Nak cepat orang masuk. Maka kami turunkan sewa... then nego-nego lagi, turun lagi. Muahaha.. Lantakla. Aku risau selagi takde tenants. Sekarang, let say potongan loan RM100, kitorang sewakan RM130. Ade la lebih sikit untuk duit yang kitorang kuar modal lengkapkan rumah tu dengan perabot/peralatan elektrik. Jadilahhh... malas nak fikir dah.

Rumah Lumut plak tengah macam tongkang pecah. Aku sejak pregnant jadi tak larat nak kemas and angkut-angkut kotak/susun-susun barang dalam SOHO. Maka, ruang tamu aku mcam loading bay tak siap. Hahaha... Even tenants pun tegur "Barang makin banyak yer..." kwang3

Bukan banyak, tak kemas jela wei...

Sebut tentang tenants, bulan October ni last la 2 orang penyewa bilik di Rumah Lumut akan duduk di sini. Lepas ni laki aku dah nak balik Lumut so we have the house to ourselves. Alhamdulillah.

Hubby couldn't wait to get his hands on Razin's room. He said he want to decorate it. Aku pun tak sabar jugak. I think it's about time Razin has his own room. Tak kisah la dia tidur situ ke tidak, tapi at least ade la bilik sendiri kan... hehehe...

And this time aku nak beli proper baby cot. From wood. Not plastic/steel. Aku tak tau la practicality dia, tapi aku tak peduli. Aku nak. Nak letak kat bawah. Kat atas, tido sekali jela... co-sleep. Senang nak breastfeed.

Oh yes! Aku tak sabar nak breastfeed my second child. This time nak biar lama la sikit dari Razin. Razin dulu sampai 5,6 bulan je bf. Dah start makan, aku pun maleh nak pam-pam. Tapi dulu aku kerja Hertz! Sekarang kerja sendiri... Mudah-mudahan lebih senang la kan... Insya Allah...

Ok lah... perut dah mula berbunyi. Lapar. Masuk angin. Nak termuntah. I need to lie down now.

Bye.

Assalamualaikum

Written By Ryehana
ahamdulIllah...
Thursday, October 17, 2013
bismIllah...



Situasi 1:

Pagi. Mandikan Razin... lepas berperang dalam bilik air, Razin mintak dukung and I carried him to bed. Lap-lap badan and prepare nak pakaikan diaper.

"Ajin... Ajin jangan nakal-nakal tau. Nak mandi pun susah sangat. Dah mandi tak nak keluar bilik air plak..."

"Mandiiiiii" jerit Razin.

"Yer... dah mandi dah kan" and I continued wiping his body.

"Ajin... nanti kalau Ajin dah ada adik, Mak tak tahu la boleh luang masa nak mandikan and layan Ajin lama-lama macam ni... Mak takut nanti semua benda nak cepat je..."

Air mataku bergenang.

"Mak takut nanti Ajin dah tak dapat manja-manja dengan Mak macam sekarang"

Nangis.




Situasi 2:

Drive ke UniKL Mimet bawak Razin untuk hantar ke taska.

Banyak perkara bermain di fikiran.

Kesian Razin. So I decided to send him to nursery until hubby is back. Oh hubby delay posting ke Lumut. Bulan November plak. Sedih...

Radio Lite FM. Tetiba lagu 'Will Smith - Just the two of us' ke udara.

Air mata menitik-nitik macam air hujan. Sayu...




Situasi 3:

Pagi. Dah terang. Pukul 7.30 pagi. Golek-golek atas katil dan kejut Razin.

Mata pejam tapi ditepisnya tangan aku dengan kuat. Ala-ala nak belasah orang.

"Ajin, bangun la. Mandi"

Dia mengeliat. Gosok-gosok and cuba tarik taik mata yang melekat di kelopak mata.

"Bangun la Ajin... nak pergi sekolah tak?"

"Tak nak" lembut je dia jawab. Laju plak jawab.

"Jom laaaaaa"

"Tak nak"

Aku tenung je dia. Dia tengok aku balik. Senyum-senyum and golek ke dada. Baring atas dada.

Tiba-tiba dia bangun, cium pipi aku.

Sebak.

Nangis lagi.

Tak jadi pergi taska aritu.




Situasi 4:

Nak update blog. Nak update tentang hubby delay draf Lumut, tentang customer banyak songeh, tentang kutu, tentang selera aku yang takde.... tapi teringatkan Razin yang sedang tidur (awal tido mlm ni)

Taip.

Remembering.

Cried.

:'(


Written By Ryehana
alhamdulIllah...
Thursday, October 10, 2013
bismIllah...

 7 weeks pregnant today!



Alhamdulillah... last Tuesday dah scan and finally dah nampak amniotic sac. And nampak jugak jantung baby berdegup-degup dengan laju. Syukur ya Allah... tak sedar aku menangis sendiri masa on the way balik scan tu. :')

Walaupun ni 2nd pregnancy, tapi tahap ke'excited'an tu sama je macam 1st dulu. Maybe sebab lama tunggu? Ape-ape pun, aku harap semoga baby no.2 ni akan sihat dan selamat sampai full term, insya Allah.


Ni gambar scan aritu. Nampak kantung je yg bulat tu. baby kt bottom of the sac. VERY SMALL!
Yela, besar buah blueberry je... tapi kenapa aku gemuk macam dah pregnant 4,5 bulan?? -__-



Ermmm... scan ni kat Klinik Diong. Sebenarnye aku buat checkup kat Klinik Sejati. Tapi sebab masa aku datang tu mesin tengah servis plak, aku dibawak pergi klinik sebelah. Nasib baik la sebelah je. Tapi tak kisah pun cos Dr Diong tu baik and ramah gile. Pasni aku takkan pergi dah klinik pakar Ling kot. Pergi Klinik Diong je. Heheh...

Tu jelah update baby no. 2

Next check up 27hb nanti. Aku tak buat-buat lagi buku pink cos malas. Aku tak ingat mana aku letak buku pink time Razin dulu... Nanti la dah 3,4 bulan baru aku buat. Lagipun maleh nak pergi KKIA. Kena tunggu lama bla bla... 

Anyway...

Update Razin.

Dah masuk bulan kedua Razin pergi taska. Plan awal nak hantar sebulan je. Tapi terlajak ke bulan seterusnya cos sejak preggy ni memang aku penat. Tenaga aku hanya untuk bekerja (dari rumah), uruskan kain baju and kemas rumah sikit-sikit serta settlekan hal pengeposan barang etc. No energy to cook and memang tak lalu makan ape yang aku masak pun. huhu... Tunggu laki aku balik Raya Haji nanti baru ok kot.

Razin dah ok dah sekarang. Takde dah nangis bergolek-golek bila kena tinggal kat taska. Nangis kejap or kekadang tak nangis pun. Muka je macam nak nangis. And he's happy he has friends. Senyap je bila hantar dia pepagi ke taska. Takde memberontak dah. Oh... dah besar anak aku... :')

Rasenya abis bulan 10 ni tak hantar Razin ke taska dah rasenye. Sunyi jugak dia takde. Tapi problem aku bab makan la... kesian plak anak aku tak makan kalau aku tak masak. Aku tak makan xpe. Aku memang MALAS masak tahap dewa sekarang ni even perut aku sakit and lapar gile aku rela start enjin kereta pergi tapau ape2 makan. Yeah, that bad.

Busy kerja dari pagi sampai petang... Malam je free ckit.

Dah memang SELALU sangat aku makan lambat tak ikut time. Well, memang aku ada gastrik so lagi la teruk kan...

alhamdulillah bisnes ok... sangat ok. tapi kekurangan dia aku tak cukup masa. Solat Zohor pun selalu pukul 3 lebih... padahal aku dok kat umah je! Semuanya lewat. Zohor and Asar selalu lewat. Haihhhh... Ya Allah, permudahkanlah...

Bak kata Hamka kereta mayat, rezeki yang berkat tu rezeki yang kita dapat tanpa membuatkan kita mengabaikan tanggungjawab kita pada Allah. 

Because I know... semua wang dan harta di dunia ni takleh bawak ke kubur jugak. Duduk dalam kubur nanti sorang-sorang... Fuhh... perlu muhasabah diri lagi.

Cuma niat aku sekarang, cari duit untuk kesenangan anak-anak aku nanti. Tolong suami aku untuk kehidupan yang lebih selesa insya Allah.. and mudah-mudahan I can help others with what I have.. Alhamdulillah, kami tak mewah, tak juga miskin. Cukup-cukup sahaja.


Sekian bebelan hari ni.

Esok lusa sambung lagi kalau rajin.

Akhir sekali, tempek gambar sikit...




Written By Ryehana
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