Puasa pertama

bismIllah...


Dear little one,

Today is my first day to fast with you in my tummy. I was very scared about you. Scared that you will not get the nutrition you need. But people said it's okay... Plus, if I couldn't stand the hunger or the pain, I could always surrender right? :D

Well thank God we made it! Yes... I didn't throw up at all during the day. But... things weren't so good after the iftar. I threw up big time around 8.30 pm... I even scared your Aunt Nini cos she said I was retching so loud, she got up and looked for me in the toilet.

It was bad dear... All my dinner was splattered on the wall and on the bathroom floor. Can't get the toilet seat up in time! Your aunt was green when she saw me. Haha... but she helped me cleaned up the mess and rubbed my back while I continue vomiting.

But it's okay... all this for you little one! This little experience will forever engrave in my memory. The funny taste in my mouth when I'm done puking to my heart's content... it is a taste of happiness. I'm happy and grateful to be able to experience this. Plus, mothers get rewarded by Our Creator whenever she felt any discomfort while carrying their child! I shouldn't complain. :D

I vomitted again at 11 o'clock just now. Now all the food I ate tonight was officially gone. But that's alright too... I made a cup of warm milk for us both. We should be okay till dawn... :)

Though, I am a little worried about the folic acid I downed earlier... It's probably gone with all the vomit.... hmmm....

Dear little one,

I don't know if you can feel my emotions... but I'm sorry if I terrorized you... made you uncomfortable... I never meant anything bad to happen to you. I'm just... having my mood swings... The truth is, I miss your father. Terribly.

But what can we do? He's in Lumut and here we are in KL. I can only meet him when he's not sailing or busy on weekends. I guess that's how it'll be for now. Bear with me, little one. We'll find our way out of this somehow.

Thank God your lovely Aunt Nini is here with us. She takes care of me. Us. She's a great sister. I'll be forever thankful to her... :')

Yesterday we played a little game. Well... just a stupid gender-guessing game... based on old wives' tale... but it's fun! I don't really care what gender you will be, I'll love you with all my heart!

But who am I to lie.... I can't wait to know!

I love you, little one.

Be strong... and grow healthily...

I can't seem to be blogging about things other than me, my pregnancy, my baby and my family these days.

Please go if you can't stand it, gentle readers...

So cute!!!

Salam.


alhamdulIllah...

Easily annoyed.

bismIllah...


First of all, happy Ramadhan to all of you gentle readers. Semoga dapat menjalani ibadah dengan sempurna pada bulan ni. As for me? Ntah... esok baru 1st puasa kan... hopefully larat. :D

Di sini nak lepas geram sikit.

Kalau takmo bace, sila klik X.

I'm easily annoyed when the followings happened/or I came across those things:

a) Annoyed at those who don't know the difference between annoyed and annoying. Yang aku selalu jumpa, perkataan 'annoying' je. Annoyed and annoying adalah lain maknanye ye...

'Aku annoying sangat dengan perangai dia tu'--->FALSE
'Aku annoyed betul dengan perangai dia tu'--->TRUE

actually dua2 ayat salah cos campur bahasa inggeris dan bahasa melayu! matila tok guru hampehhhh... wakaka...

b) Annoyed at people who talks or laughs loudly... tengok keadaan jugak la kan.. cos aku sendiri kuat gelak... but please la alert ngan persekitaran. jangan la terjerit pekik macam tak hormat orang lain plak...

c) Annoyed at those yang suka sindir-sindir...

d) Annoyed at those yang malas buang sampah, cuci toilet and jimatkan elektrik. Nak tunggu sampah berulat baru nak buang gamaknye... ape lah yang susah sangat. Padahal it's ur own rubbish! eh.. terlebih skop plak.

e) Annoyed at everything that is dirty! Aku pun pemalas gak... but at least jangan la biar LAMA sangat!

f) Annoyed at pending work. ni macam point (e) jugak la...

g) Annoyed with favoritism. It's only tolerable if you're Anthony Hopkins and you have Claire Forlani as your daughter (Meet Joe Black, anyone?)

h) Annoyed with sour-faced and two-faced people.

i) Annoyed at people who is not punctual. Time flies and you'll never get back any seconds you lose!

j) Most of all, I'm annoyed at those who LOVES to kiss someone's butt. (nothing gay here)


There.

Somehow, aku rasa ade yang tercicir.

Takpelah.

Selamat berpuasa everyone! and semoga kita dapat membaiki kelemahan diri dari sehari ke sehari!

p/s: Entry ni untuk lepas geram je. Biase la macam aku ni... moody je...

Salam....



alhamdulIllah...

Usah dilayan sangat perasaan...

bismIllah...


Entry sebelum ni betulla bunyi orang tak bersyukur.

I am pregnant. Alhamdulillah... berapa ramai orang yang dah kahwin tapi belum lagi diberi peluang untuk ada baby? Syukur...

I have a job. Alhamdulillah... berapa ramai perempuan yang takde kerja dan susah nak membeli macam-macam benda yang diorang teringin? Kena mengharapkan pemberian mak ayah atau husband. Syukur aku ada pendapatan sendiri...

I have a sister who always there by my side. Yer... walaupun bukan suami, tapi ok la for the time being. Kalau tak, mau aku lagi depressed. Syukur kerana diberi seorang adik yang penyabar dan bertimbang-rasa...

I have a transport. Walaupun just a motorcycle kepunyaan suami, but at least I do have a transport untuk ke hulu ke hilir. Takdelah mengharap nak pinjam motor or kereta orang je kerjanya. Syukur alhamdulillah...

I am going through a normal pregnancy. Despite being sick, muntah-muntah dan asyik nak terkencing 24 jam, syukur aku merasai pengalaman mengandung. Setiap rasa sakit dan kurang selesa yang aku alami dikurniakan pahala kerana mengandungkan seorang anak. Untungnya menjadi ibu. Rugilah mereka yang tak merasa apa-apa ketika mengandung. Alhamdulillah...

I'm going back to Beruas this Friday.

Syukur alhamdulillah kerana dianugerahkan sseorang suami yang penyabar dan sentiasa menantikan kehadiranku di sisinya. Bila lama tak berjumpa barula menghargai setiap detik bersama.

Alhamdulillah kerana aku masih ada Mak yang sayang aku. And Opah yang excited bila tau aku pregnant. Yes, I have everything...

Jom layan lagu ni...

alhamdulIllah...

When my heart is in pain...

bismIllah...


When my heart is in pain, I cry and cry...

Haih... Entah kenapa hari ni tetiba aku emo. Mata dah bengkak. Apa taknya, sejak nak balik dari ofis tadi tetiba aku rase sedih dan sayu. Nangis je..

The truth is, aku letih bawak motor. Especially bila jalan jem di KL ni. Aku tak larat. And aku rasa kesian pada diri aku sendiri. pathetic kan..

Rasa jeles je ngan colleagues yang ada husband or boyfriend pickup diorang. Aku? Kena meredah jalan raya tu sorang-sorang [kebetulan Nini MC arini]

And balik tadi nyaris nak eksiden. Kereta yang bangang tak bagi signal memang menyusahkan orang. Lagi la hati aku sayu... Terfikir yang bukan-bukan.

Sampai umah aku menangis. Dan menangis. Aku tau setan je dok bisik benda bukan-bukan... so aku cuba bertenang...

Pas Maghrib, sekali lagi rasa sayu dan sedih sebab suami tiada di sisi untuk bersama aku. Takde orang nak peluk dan tenangkan aku, takde orang nak sayang aku... And I cried myself to sleep. Sedihnya tak tau nak cakap.. I felt so alone.

Kul 9 terjaga.
Perut lapar tapi takde selera. Taknak makan kang sian baby aku... Nangis lagi...
Nini plak ingat aku nangis sebab lapar. Tanya aku nak makan nasik ke... Taknak. Takde selera. Nak makan megi je. So dia masakkan megi. Makan jela... aku memang takde hati nak makan nasi.

Kenapa tetiba aku depressed camni?

Menangis je kerjanya...

Hati sedih je...

Mr CC tak bagi aku nangis-nangis ni. Tak elok cos sedang mengandung kan... Tapi tahla... aku tak hepi. Takde benda or orang yang bagi aku hepi sekarang ni. So aku bersedih sebab aku sunyi.... Bunyi yang sangat tak bersyukur kan?

Oh God...

I miss his presence.

I miss his hugs and kisses.

:'(


alhamdulIllah...

Busy weekend

bismIllah...


Aku memang nak update blog.. tapi takde masa.

Last Friday was Yash's birthday. So aku belanja dia makan kat Pizza Hut and tengok wayang citer The Last Airbender di Pavilion.

There were four of us. Yash brought her friend and I brought Nini. It was fun and sangat mengenyangkan... nasib baik la si budak Yash ni boleh habiskan semua makanan. Bagus... tak rugi aku belanje... hehehe...

Happy Birthday, Yash!

The birthday girl downing some food...

Me and Nini.
Yeah I know I put on weight!
so what?


Dah kenyang. Nak abiskan aiskrim pun dah tak larat actually...


Then off we went to watch The Last Airbender!

It was awesome!

Kalau tengok 3D mesti lagi best.. tapi sebab kami kejar masa, memang dapat tengok yang biase jela...

Hari Sabtu aku kerja dari 8 pagi sampai 1.30 petang... but sampai kul 2.30 gak keje.. pastu punch card and wait for my cousin, Eti yang nak datang pickup aku untuk pergi umah Mak Yang. Yela, since weekend ni takde mende nak wat, suami pun tak datang, baik aku melawat Mak Yang. Mak Yang buatkan aku jeruk mempelam! hihi! best wohhhh...

Eti came after being lost for quite a bit in KL (sorry Eti!! aku xmo naik train cos aku takut xdapat seat... kang kalo dlm train for sure bergegar je... not good!) then we picked up Nini before going to Bandar Seri Putra Mahkota.

Malam tu asyik menyembang je la...biase la kalau ada Eti, macam-macam cerita ada... and the next day (today), Eti pergi melawat Opah tunang dia di hospital and then dia nak pergi shopping barang nak kahwin... Aku, Nini dan Kak Lin (anak Mak Yang) plak pergi merayap ke Alamanda untuk menonton wayang... Tengok wayang sesaje.. haha... aku belanje tengok wayang, Kak Lin belanja makan. :D

Makan dessert sebelum melangkah ke KFC untuk melantak lagi.

Penatnye hari ni... nasibaik minggu ni masuk kerja kul 9 setengah pagi... tapi abis pun 6.30 petang. Mmm macam kena berbuka kat ofis je sapenjang minggu ni... ape nak buat...

Update tentang kesihatan plak.

Now I'm 7 weeks pregnant. And sejak malam semalam, dah mula start simptom asyik nak buang air. From what I read, the growing uterus is pressing on my bladder now.. buatkan pundi air kencing dah tak cukup space untuk store urine. That's why orang pregnant asyik nak terkencing je kejenya... mmm i guess that's good then. It's growing... :)

The not so good thing is I still suffer from nose bleeds. Tapi tak banyak sangat dah. Tak meleleh. Tapi rase macam berhingus. Tapi bukan hingus. Semalam Kak Lin bagi aku pakai Kool Fever. Sejuk sangat la plak jadinya dahi aku. huhu

Lagi ape ek...

Semua orang asyik komen badan aku dah naik.

Guess what? I'm expecting!!

huh.

Aku agak risau tentang berpuasa ketika mengandung ni. Aku dah ganti puasa before aku tau aku pregnant... ok jela. But now, kalau makan lambat je (ari Sabtu lepas pukul 1 baru makan) mesti perut aku sakit and pedih sangat. Aku tak tau la sebab gastrik ke (sebab memang aku ada gastrik) atau sebab lapar sesangat-sangat. Camne nak puasa ni?

Huhu... takkan la tak puasa plak?

Mampos nak ganti. T____T

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah segala urusan dan tanggungjawab...

That's all for now. Salam.


alhamdulIllah...

Not good. But bearable.

bismillah...


First sekali, perkara yang tak best berlaku padaku adalah hidung berdarah. Dah 3 malam dah ni... husband kata badan aku panas, suh aku minum air cap badak. And sampai sekarang tak cari lagi air tu. Nanti la... err... :P

Buku di background adalah The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown.
Baru abis bace malam ni.

Secondly, muka naik jerawat. Dah lame dah ni... bila nak surut tah. Selalunya naik time period je... tapi sekarang ni pun berjerawat jugak. Tak best.

Yang kat hidung tu bukan jerawat tapi tahi lalat 2 bijik.
Pipi berjerawat.. and dahi sikit...

Last sekali, about my job. Well... pagi-pagi aku selalu mabuk... Tapi tak muntah pun. Just loya and rase sakit kepala ar... So, mood aku nak pergi kerja pagi-pagi selalunya takde. Rase tak larat je... huhu..

Dekat kaunter..

Another thing pulak, about my transfer. Ipoh Airport nampaknya macam tak jadi bukak. My boss called me last 2 weeks or so and said that she didn't think there will be good business in Ipoh sebab airportnya deserted. MAS punyer flight tak turun situ dah. And keadaan kat airport tu sunyi sangat. I was crushed.

But then, my boss said she's going to propose for the company to open up the new branch in Lumut instead of Ipoh. Of course I was excited! That would be a dream come true! Tapi tu la... nama lagi proposal, it's going to take time laaaa.. So, ape-ape pun mesti lepas raya gak. Mmm duduk jela KL ni lagi...

Kalaulah Lumut memang jadi bukak, memang aku bersyukur sangat-sangat. Rezeki... Senang la nak berulang dari rumah kami di Lumut tu. Dekat je. And my husband will no longer live in that house alone. I can also start polishing up my skills to serve my husband better (skills memasak, menghias rumah la.. jangan fikir skill bukan-bukan plak!) Pray for us!

Semua ni benda-benda yang aku kena bersabar la buat masa ni.

Sekarang ni aku still merempit ke tempat kerja. Ramai dok bising bahaya la ape la... tapi nak buat macam mana... That's my only mode of transportation right now. Tho I admit memang letih bawak motor di jalanraya KL ni... nak menyelit-nyelit tengah jem... apatah bila bila ada pembonceng... tapi insya Allah.. doakan perjalanan aku sentiasa selamat ye. Lagipun, orang yang bawak motor kurang bergegar dari orang yang membonceng di belakang...

My husband did offer to leave his honda city for me and Nini to use but I refused. Tahla, risau aku nak bawak keta dia... aku tengah tunggu hujung bulan ni Mak kata nak bagi Kancil... nak beli kereta baru, aihhhh memang belum mampu lagi ni. Takpela... slow-slow... biarla laki aku pakai keta dia tu... senang nak datang jumpa aku... harapkan aku balik Lumut memang agak susah la since kerja aku ni kena kerja jugak Sabtu or Ahad.

Aku sentiasa berdoa Allah permudahkanlah segala urusanku.

I always remind myself yang ada orang yang lagi unfortunate than me. Bersyukur la ape yang ada... tapi dalam masa yang sama, there's always room for improvement.

K lah. that's all for now.


Salam.


alhamdulIllah...

Of Bukit Tinggi, Pahang and pills.

bismIllah...


Yeah.. we went to Berjaya Hills Resort last weekend. Check in hari Sabtu. Spent a night there. It was okay la... tapi kan, cuaca dia tak sejuk and sebest Cameron Highlands or Genting Highlands. Waktu pagi jela berkabus (time breakfast)... tapi tak sejuk sangatlah! Still ada aircond and fan dalam bilik hotel. Overall, biase jelah... jadila, merasa ke Bukit Tinggi. But honestly, I prefer Cameron Highlands and Genting Highlands because of the climate. Hehe..

Ape-ape pun, there was something so special about our time there. My husband surprised me with a piece of jewelery! He said, "Ayang, terima lah... takdelah mahal mana... ni hadiah dari abang sebab ayang tengah carry our baby". Oh terharu aku... So thoughtful of him... romantik jugak orang tua laki aku ni.. hehe... Cos I did say, "Eh, bukanke isteri selalu dapat barang kemas lepas beranak ke?". And he replied, "Haa.. itu lain. Ini lain. Yang beranak nanti lain la plak".

Hehe... terima kasih suamiku. walaupun tak mahal mane, I really appreciate it. ;')
Tak tau la bila nak pakainye... huhu

Well, next destination would be Fraser Hill... Tak tau lah bila yer... Takde dalam plan terdekat. But insya Allah akan pergi sana lak cos aku taknah pegi! haa jangan tak tau, aku memang suka kawasan pergunungan yang nyaman. :D

Lepas check out hotel, kitorang jalan-jalan ke Japanese Garden, Botanical Garden and Rabbit Park. Pastu balik KL...

Sampai je Pandan Jaya, singgah Klinik Kita... klinik yang aku pergi 2 minggu lepas untuk confirmkan pregnancy. Haa.. citer tentang awal pengetahuan tentang pregnancy memang panjang, last kang aku citer***...

Dipendekkan citer, jumpa Dr Azrien yang bertugas hari Ahad. Dia memang suh datang lagi sekali untuk buat test cos masa aku datang dulu, masih awal sangat. Dia siap scan lagi lower abdomen aku tapi tak nampak ape. Katanya, awal lagi. Kandungan kecik sangat tak nampak ape lagi. even kantung pun takde...

So this time dia suh aku wat lagi pregnancy test. Kencing jela dah orang suh kencing... and of course, 2 bold red lines. Bold yer... tak faint dah. 2 minggu lepas faint. And then she scanned my tummy since aku tak tau how long exactly kandungan aku tu... So, scan la lagi... and this time, aku nampak dah ada kantung! I don't know what is its exact term, tapi senang citer kantung yang mengandungi baby la... It's there! Oh.. semacam je rasa... :)

Then the doctor sized my baby... and she estimated how long my pregnancy was... Mulanya dia kata 5 weeks 3 days.. pastu dia kata 6 weeks. Mmm mane-mane jela... Yang aku tau, my baby will due on March 2011.

Motif blurkan air kencing?? wakaka..
Ini test ke-4 yang aku amik. Bold 2 red lines.

Kenapa ke-4?
You'll know why when you read the 1st entry I wrote about my pregnancy.

And so... the doc give me some pills to pop. :P

OBIMIN

And of course, ubat tahan muntah. ;)

Okay, about the first entry I wrote when I came to know about my pregnancy was actually in my private blog.

But do take a peek if you wish since I already paste the entry at my Picture Blog. (sebab blog tu lame tak update)

Cheers!

p/s: I didn't take any picture of the ultra-sound since you can only see a pouch.


alhamdulIllah...