Monday, May 7, 2012

Be gentle, for gentleness has never been used in anything without beautifying it

bismIllah...


Aku agak stress sekarang ni. I become more hot tempered lately. Sian Razin kena marah. Camne nak buat ya?

Aku stress... aku tak suka nak marah-marah dia. Ape la yang dia tau kan...

Sedih...

Rasa nak nangis bila ingat balik... ok, dah nangis dah pun.

I'm a bad mom.

T_____T

Maafkan Mak, yer Razin.


I didn't mean to shout. I just can't control my temper when you're tearing up all my stuff. 'Tidying up' my stocks and making a mess of my inventory...

*Sigh*

I know you're just being you. You're a child who is exploring new things... learning new things...

I know you love me so much that you can't bear to see me ignoring you when I'm working.

But Mommy needs to work too, sayang...


Ahhhh... stress... stress...

I can't wait to stay in my own house. Sleep in my own bed, cook in my own kitchen and working in my 'to-be-fully-renovated' office inside my own house.

Tapi lambat lagi... tahun depan la kot baru balik Lumut semula.

Hujung bulan akan balik ke Johor semula. Dan akan bermula kembali la ke'tension'an aku taking care of my son alone. huahuahua...

Kat Johor tu lagi laaaaaaa banyak cabarannya cos just ME and Razin when hubby went to work.

Takpela...

Nak wat camne kan...

Nak tak nak kena pandai-pandai la manage.

Bukan aku tak nak jaga anak sendiri, eh of cos la aku nak jaga anak aku sendiri... tapi bila memikirkan kerja-kerja yang akan tertangguh and sometimes aku LUPA buatkan aku stress.

I think I am a perfectionist. I think I am also a control freak.

I am someone who hates to keep my customers waiting. Sebab aku sendiri tak suka menunggu.

I want to take care of my baby, but at the same time I do am committed to my current job.

Tapi susah... memang susah.

Bear with me, Razin.


Ya Allah... help me to be a better mother. Amin.

Written By Ryehana
alhamdulIllah...

2 comments:

deena awanis said...

razin surely will understand..cabaran WAHM yer..kuatkan semangat ye ana..

Ryehanna said...

thanks deena!

:')